Useless

Finally a post......It seems that the more i try to return & devote my time to where my heart belongs. Here in SL. The more i am torn away.
After the delights of a brief return in August, it became impossible to keep things up as i used to. My heart & soul lie in being the pet i have always been, and yet, the times when i used to spend many days & hours revelling in that role have long gone.
RL tears me away more & more, just as it did with my beloved Mistress Loola. Even though i know RL comes first & that i must do what i have to. It makes it no easier to take & miss my home here in SL.

The worst element of course, is knowing how much i let down those that need & care for me.

Mistress Rubbergirl has been magnificent over the whole course of this year, but every time i hope to impress her & settle by her side, the dreams are scuppered and as such i let her down again.

Apologies Mistress for being such an absent pet, and apologies to anyone who wanders where i am, or what i am up to.

I still think on you all & hope to see you again, but, maybe my times are changing? Maybe, i will have to alter my expectations or commitments in someway, so as not to disappoint myself & or my Mistress, by pledging more than i can deliver in this difficult time of transition.
Who knows? Not i right now, that's for sure.

Thinking of you all xx

Control & Ownership

Such a good day was had on Monday. I got to spend a long time in the company of my Mistress and how she has been to me.

Mistress Rubbergirl has been kind enough to take the time with me to sort out my cuffs, collar, locks, mask etc. as they were all still locked by Mistress Loola. This was because it was always intended after Mistress Loola's departure that she would hop online at some point to pass any keys over etc over to Mistress Rubbergirl and grant her full control over me.
Unfortunately, Mistress Loola has been laden more heavily with RL than hoped and as such, this never happened. It was not enough to stop my loyalty and servitude to Mistress Rubbergirl however as even locked securely away inside my suit i was still able to grant her my affection and love and i was always happy with the rewards i was given.

Over the course of time though this has obviously been something of a niggling issue and in order to be able to truly feel secure in my place and to prove my loyalty and devotion to Mistress Rubbergirl, it is only right to get my locks and ownership in order. For her happiness and for mine too.

So...it took a while, but, after much fiddling and relogging, i am now happily under the lock and key of Mistress Rubbergirl and it is a wonderful feeling.
To know that i have such a good owner and to realise how lucky i am to be under her watchful eye. Mistress Rubbergirl has always been there for me, at every turn and i will do my utmost to please her. She is now the centre of everything and i am always happy to be by her side. It is good to know where i belong and what is expected of me and so my devotion to my Mistress will no no bounds as i aim to do my best by her.

Here is to the coming weeks and the fun that hopefully lies ahead. xx

Coming Home

Hey everyone!

It has been so long since my last post. I know, i am sorry. It has been a pretty busy and torrid time for me this summer and my SL has been put on hold whilst my RL took priority for a while.
But, as all good natured people will tell you, RL comes first. So, when needs must, we do what we must to get by,

It has not been easy to be away from all my friends and of course, most importantly, my dear Mistress Rubbergirl. Just as we were beginning to form our new relationship, with her as my new owner, we have been parted in the most cruel way.
However, the kindness and understanding that Mistress Rubbergirl has for me knows no bounds. She has always been supportive of my needs and the time i need to keep things in order.
My role as a pet though and the need to please and be close to my owner always makes it so hard to be away for any length of time. So i was elated to finally be able to see her again. The pic below, being a fine example of our joyful reunion...


I cannot wait to make up once more for the time i have lost. I know that i have a lot to do to get myself up to speed. Time moves so quickly in SL, with relationships, friends, roles and places, changing and evolving so fast.
It will be interesting to see all the things i have missed over time.

I look forward to catching up with all my friends again and i hope you will all bear with me as i do my best to continue with my blog as normal.
Hopefully, some people out there will still be interested in what i have to say. xx

Changes

Such a big couple of weeks in terms of changes and relationships. I have struggled to blog the last few days even when i have been able to be online, as i have found myself struggling to work out exactly where my role lies recently and what the future holds for me. Being able to be clear and honest about things in my blog is very important to me, so being unsure how to explain things to the world when i wasn't even sure myself has been very tricky to deal with.

My beloved Mistress Loola sent me a mail a while ago expressing her love for me but, also the unfortunate news that she will be away for sometime still with RL. I will not go to specifically into the exact details of it all. But, needless to say i was quite devastated to hear such bad news from my point of view.
But, as Mistress Loola always says, RL comes first and i am proud of her for taking the time to do what is needed for herself. Despite my sadness.

Even in her parting though, she still cares enough to plan for my care while she is away for an indefinite period. She found the time one evening, to chat with Mistress Rubbergirl, who has been so kind to me over the passing weeks, and, to put it simply, she has asked her to care for me as if i was her own pet for how ever long it may be until she returns.
Needless to say, that both myself and Mistress Rubbergirl were left flabbergasted, even if it is from very different points of view...

Mistress Loola is still intending to pop online very briefly at some point to express her wishes to me more personally and more clearly. As well as, presumably, giving Mistress Rubbergirl better access to me, by altering some of my permissions maybe.
I was at a loss for a while, wondering how to cope. Where to start? How to deal with everything and come to terms with what is going on.
Mistress Rubbergirl is fabulous and as Mistress Loola suggests, i can think of no one better to look after me. But, that made it no less shocking. Mistress Loola has moulded me into the well rounded pet i am today and to know i will not see her for such lengths that she needs to entrust my care to someone left me down for some days.
This is why my blog has faltered so much recently, as i am sure you can understand. I simply didn't know where to start as i waited for answers or tried to resolve my own feelings.

After much soul searching though, i came to realise that the only thing that truly matters to me is my Mistress and doing my best to please her and keep her happy. If she feels Mistress Rubbergirl is able to look after me, whilst she herself is unable to, then i will follow her decision. Who am i to doubt her?
I am and will always be, Mistress Loola's pet, and as soon as she does return to SL i will be back at her side quicker than you can blink. *grins*
Until then though, i am proud and honoured to have Mistress Rubbergirl as a Mistress. She is a fabulous friend, woman, Mistress and more. To be in her presence is always an honour and i am honoured that she has agreed to take care of me.

So....my days will be a little different now. The rubber room is still of course, one of my main hang outs and i still have a bed there. For which i am ever grateful! But, on top of this i now have the constant care and protection of Mistress Rubbergirl as she welcomes me into her family.
So much so, she has even been kind enough to put a bed for me in her playroom so that i also have a place to rest when i am at her abode. Below is a peek of it for your pleasure and as the days go on i hope to have more news on all the changes and more as things develop. Hopefully, things will work out nicely and as always i must thank most of all my beloved, Mistress Loola xx

The Future

It's been an interesting couple of days for me. There is a lot happening but, not all of i feel able to speak of right now. I had contact from my Mistress this week, but i am waiting to see her face to face to fully appreciate and understand the extent of everything.
I know that she cares for me no end, but that as with everyone sometimes, she has things going on far bigger than anything waiting for her in SL right now and i fully respect that.

What i do know for sure is that Mistress Loola will be away a while longer yet and the future may be a little different for me. How exactly, time will tell and i will tell you more as i can. My mind has been racing the last couple of days and it is a hard time to be a pet. The person i need most and that my whole world is centred around, is out of my reach and there is nothing i can do about it.

The saving grace as always is having people who care for me to make sure i am getting by ok. I saw Alistair last night, for the first time in a while. Although only briefly it made me feel comforted to know he is still around and asking after me.
On top of that, i spent a little time with Jessie, Miss Thina's kitten, as i have previously called her in this blog. Although things with have altered it seems into a more mutual, loving partnership. A little surprising to come back to after only about a week away, but as long as they are happy, that's the main thing.
I hope to see more of them again soon as it is always fun to bump into them in the rubber room. As it is with many of the regulars who know me there.

Mistress Rubbergirl has been taking care of me of course as well. She was looking stunning last night in a clear latex outfit which definitely caught my eye. *winks* But, i was surprised to return the other day to discover Mistress Rubbergirl has a new pet, Carly, whom, more surprisingly, has many similarities to myself. Apparently Mistress Rubbergirl made her new pet read my blog to help see if the pet's life was for her and to understand what it is all about. I blushed greatly at this it is a lovely compliment to me. I hope Carly enjoyed my words in some way and i hope she is able to find herself happiness within her new role, and be able to commit to it long term. I am sure she will try to do Mistress Rubbergirl proud.
I have noticed an increase in pets recently over the past few months. It may be just coincidence, although i could be bigheaded and claim some credit for it *flex*. I would never be so arrogant though hehe.


Anyway, i will vanish for now and give more info on my situation as soon as i can. I need to resolve it all as quickly as you may want to know *smiles*

Time

Time away, once again. RL calls and all goes on hold for a few days. But, the break may have been good in some ways to distract me a bi. I miss Mistress Loola so much that it was starting to take its toll on me. So a few day away may have been a good way to catch some breath.
But, as always i return to the place where i can be myself the most. Mistress Rubbergirl was happy to see me of course and i was even happier to take up my place in the rubber room once more. Upon my bed.

Today's post is just brief, to mark my return and show that i am still here. As the weekend progresses, hopefully i will have more to share and more to talk about. We'll see what the future holds.

Time Off

A lack of posts over the weekend. This is because a busy few days in RL gave me an enforced break for a bit, but, this may have been a good thing. It gave me some time away to relax and unwind from the worry of missing my Mistress so much.

Mistress Loola has been away for a while now and it is starting to effect my moods. This pet has definite withdrawal symptoms. Restless and lacklustre, it has been difficult recently. But, at the same time, i have faith that i will come through the other side of this period intact and strong as ever.
I know that my Mistress does care for me and that when able to she will be with me and as supportive as ever.

In the meantime, i will try and keep calm and focus on the kindness of my friends who will always be there to help me.

Friends

I have been saying thank you to people already today for their care and help in cheering me up when i have been feeling down. As well as just for being kind enough to put up with just having me around all the time in general.

A special thanks to Miss Thina whom, in response to all my talk of pictures the other day, was fantastic enough to send me the picture below.
It is a picture of myself (in red this time *winks*) getting to know her little kitten a bit better *grins*. The kitten is such a cute thing and i think she will do her Mistress proud. She seems, even in the short time i have known her, to improved her in sense of awareness and devotion.
Miss Thina is always very kind to me and as with Mistress Rubbergirl, it is an honour to be in her good books, so i hope to see more of her soon. She also has a pony now i believe *smiles*, so her stable is growing already.

While i am on the topic of friendship and support, i would be silly not to mention Alistair and Dess. Their love and friendship for my Mistress is vast like mine and so, whilst we are all sad to be apart from her, we share a mutual understanding and for that i am grateful. As they always check up on me when they can.

It has been a nice day so far and i am looking forward to seeing some of these friends later possibly, along with Mistress Rubbergirl. Hopefully, the weekend ahead will be a good one with some nice tales to tell. I feel as if my last couple of posts weren't like the usual me. Probably, because i have been feeling a bit down from missing my Mistress. Hence i have eneded up doing two today now as if to make up for it.

Maybe Mistress Loola will get some time over the weekend to find me for a little? That would have me buzzing once more! *smiles*

Silver lining

As you saw i had a down day yesterday. The lack of my Mistress is taking it's toll on me. Mistress Loola's absence does start to effect me after a while, as is obviously apparent. A pet without it's owner is a sad thing. The lost look in my eyes as i wander about being obvious to my friends who are all being so kind in their efforts to cheer me up.

That is where the silver lining comes in. *smiles* The people who know and care for are always doing their best to ensure i am feeling ok and to make me smile.
Among the crowd of course is Mistress Rubbergirl once more. Her kindness and care knows no bounds and i am always flattered that she thinks so highly of me.
She seems to treat me as if i was one of her own, despite the fact that i am not. I have met her dolls and kept her company. I have warmed her legs with my body as i sit and rest my head in her lap and she always seeks to do the best for me.

It is an honour to be so highly thought of and i am very happy that Mistress Loola asked her to keep an eye on me in her absence. I am of course longing for Mistress Loola and hope she comes back more regularly soon, but, in the meantime i am always happy to be with Mistress Rubbergirl and i hope to see more of her later.

She has learned of my passions over time and even teased me earlier by saying that she will be wearing her short dress later to show off her lovely legs that i am so fond of. It is both a pleasure and a pain to be sat so low down with such beautiful shapes filling my eyes, knowing that such pleasures are beyond the means of a pet like myself. But, i savour the fact that i get to sit so close to them and watch her closely as i smile inside my mask as my skin tingles with excitement.
I have a feeling that after building my heart rate with such a sight she will push me over the edge by blowing air into the intake valve of my mask and causing me to overload *grins*

I will be sure to let you know the outcome tomorrow *winks*

Tinged with sadness

A quiet couple of days for me. I have not lingered in the rubber room as much as i normally do. So much so that i have not seen Mistress Rubbergirl or many other of my friends, since my last entry.
I did see Dess for a while yesterday. She is looking more attractive than ever in gorgeous little combo she has taken to wearing. Plus, she was wearing the mask my Mistress tends to wear most recently. One of her own designs of course, and it makes me feel a sense of familiar warmth as i stare up at her eyes hiding behind that lovely rubber mould. But, at the same time. It just enhances the longing and sadness i feel for being apart from my Mistress for a while now.

I know she would only be away for so long with important matters. RL must take priority, so i hope she is doing ok and that everything will work out soon.
But, there are of course times when it hits me hard and today i am feeling downbeat from it all. I feel incomplete without Mistress Loola and lacking purpose. My Mistress provides my welfare and being. Without her i sometimes just feel...lack lustre i guess.
I usually cope quite well in her absence i feel. Making the effort to impress in her name and feeling happy just to socialise in her honour. But, it has been a while now without any extended time with her and i think it was going take its toll on me some form eventually.

I am not changing my plans or dreams. Do not worry. I would not seek to change any of my commitments to my Mistress or my chosen life. It's just an expression of my feelings today. That's what this blog is all about after all. I am a loving pet, an adoring companion to keep my Mistress company. So, it is only natural to miss my owner when she is away.

Modelling

Lots of pictures will fill my blog today. Mistress Rubbergirl was taking some pictures of her Latexdoll in one of the Rubber Room's little hide aways and she was kind enough to take some of me too, once she was done.
Once taken, the Mistress then topped off my excitement by sending me copies of the pictures so that i may have them, not just for myself, but of course, so that i may also use them in my blog and/or web album.


This was so thoughtful of Mistress Rubbergirl and i am thrilled with how the pictures look. Plus, on a more personal level i get a different sensation when i look at them as i am actually able to see myself and i tingle when i see how close i am to her, or how i look to the outside the world for once.
My sense of self is reduced by the fact that when living my daily life and looking around, my mask HUD and enforced mouselook prevents me from seeing my own image in any way. Making other people the centre of my attention and rightly so.
It ensures that i am less vain and self centred than some subs or pets may become at some point and keeps me thinking as my Mistress wishes.


So, when i see myself in a picture someone sends me, such as the one above, it is almost a shock to think of it as me. I feel excited and tingle with pride at the realisation that it is me looking so cute in the images i see.
It may sound odd, but when you go without seeing yourself for as long as i have it is a litte bizarre and overwhelming to get to grips with. Try not looking in any mirrors for a couple of months and you may begin to get somewhere near the feeling. *winks* I love it though, and wouldn't change it for the world. If anything, it just makes little things such as this all the more special to me. A picture paints a thousand words they say. In my case, that is most definitely true hehe.


Thank you Mistress Rubbergirl then, for being so kind to me as always. The picture above showing just how attentive she can be to me. I may sound like a broken record for repeating it over so many posts. But, i have to make clear how grateful i am for her care recently. She has been a fantastic guardian and i hope she realises how much that means to me.
On a lighter note though, below is a picture i am thrilled about as it finally allows me to show the lovely bed i have been given in the Rubber Room. My own spot to settle on and relax in comfort as i gaze around the room and listen in on all the goings on around me. Oh and it provides me with an excellent view of the stage as well to watch the dancers with *wink*


The rest of the day was quite fun, while i was around as i saw lots of people i knew. So many at one point that i couldn't keep up with them all. Seeing Miss Thina and her kitten always makes me smile as well as Lycra, Alistair, Princess Cookie and so many more. Despite the sadness that i feel from being apart from my Mistress for so long, i am happy that i have made so many friends who look out for me. I try to focus on them and the goings on around me to distract me from the lack of Mistress Loola's presence and i am thankful to know each and every one of them.

Oh and a special mention to Kate today as well. One of the rubber room's dancers and dj's. She was looking fabulous yesterday in a gorgeous long red dress. She promised to send me some kisses across the room, next time she is dancing on stage, so this is to make sure she doesn't forget *grins*
Plus, since i am on a photo theme, if any friends/readers take any nice pics you think i may like to use in my blog, i cannot receive them in SL, but, you can always email to me at loolaspet@gmail.com

Reputation?

A quiet day yesterday. But, then, i guess sundays can be that way. The rubber room had long sparse periods where either i would be the only person around or just with one or two other visitors.

During these quiet times, i tend to sit and reflect on things. My Mistress, of course, my friends and other people i have met over the last few days. The added bonus now of course is that i have a bed of my own to relax in while i ponder such things. I am still honoured and delighted with my latest treat and hope that my pleasure has not gone unnoticed.

I find myself feeling bashful and yet touched sometimes recently. My constant presence in the rubber room combined with my commitment seems to be gaining me a small reputation amongst some. I think, anyway. I am doing my best to overlook it and i do not wish to seem bigheaded. But, i find myself blushing constantly recently as there are times when i get a string of compliments from various sources in quick succession and i do my best to be modest and thankful at all times as i am very thankful of course to be noticed. Not to mention proud of course.
It is Mistress Loola though who i know that i have to thank for any and all praise i receive and any enhancement to my reputation that goes with it. She has helped to mould me into the loving pet that i have become and for that i am ever grateful.

Mistress Rubbergirl was of course, a highlight of my day as usual. I met one of her dolls for the the first time today. They seemed very sweet and i am sure that they serve the Mistress well. The dolly was kind enough to begin reading my blog and so that is one quick way to get into my good books of course *winks*
Later on in the evening as the day wore to a close and the people lessened around us, i shared some quiet time with Mistress Rubbergirl. I have tried to express to the Mistress how as time goes on in Mistress Loola's absence that i am more and more thankful for her affection as my fondness of her grows.

Mistress Loola is by far, without a doubt my reason for being and my only desire. But, Mistress Rubbergirl has, as she sweetly suggested recently, become the second most important person in my life and....i think she may well be right. *smiles*

Rubber Ladies

I am still trying to contain my excitement this morning as a i recover from a fabulous night in the rubber room. The main instigators in my pleasure last night is down to two rubber ladies.
Rubber Robonaught, the fabulous owner of the Rubber Room and of course Mistress Rubbergirl, my rubber clad guardian who only seems to improve in her understanding and manipulation of me.

I will start with Rubber Robonaught. She is always looking fabulous as you would expect for someone with such a name usually clad in gorgeous outfits that make my heart melt.
Anyway, Rubber always says hi to me and spots me trotting around the club. A long time ago, she joked that she should make me a little bed somewhere in room to be able to rest. On seeing her again the other night, she was amazed to realise how long i had been in the Rubber Room without going anywhere else and that i am basically resident here nowadays. This much is true, as Mistress Loola leaves me here whenever she is offline, so that i may mingle in a friendly environment.
So, last night you can imagine my pleasure when i logged in to discover a new addition to the room. Positioned neatly on a rug in front of the stage, surrounded by a row of seats is a lovely looking new pet basket. A bed placed there especially for me.

To be considered special enough and thought of in high enough regard for Rubber to take the time to put a bed down for me, I am completely overwhelmed. I am so grateful for her efforts and hope she realises how happy and excited this made me. After she told me about it, i trotted around the room looking for her, to nuzzle her in thanks and express my joy. But, the club was so busy last night that i could not pick her out. Unable to see her name and tell her apart i struggled to cope. So i ended up having to emote my thanks in general and hoping that she spotted it.
I will be sure to thank her more personally next time i have her one on one. In the meantime, maybe she will read this or someone who has will let her know how thankful i am. It is truly and honour and you are sure to find me in or near the bed from now on *grins*

The other star of the night was, as mentioned, my beloved Mistress Rubbergirl. I made a slight fool of myself at the start of the evening by expressing my disappointment at not having seen her the day before and feeling a little lost.
She had of course been busy with her own doll and was unable to catch me before i vanished for the night. I blushed at coming across as so petty and apologised for being silly. Mistress Rubbergirl of course has her own life to keep up with and looks out for me as a favour for my Mistress, a point which i should remember all the time.

But, having quickly moved on and settled happily in our usual spot, i was soon treated to something special. After having chatted with me and caught up on things the Mistress blew a long slow breath into the intake valve of my mask with a wry smile on her face. She has discovered some of my weaknesses over the last couple of weeks and i am sure my Mistress Loola would not begrudge me some small pleasure in her absence.
My head swam as i was intoxicated by her breath filling my mask. My body tingled and I inhaled deeply, trying to savour the taste as i felt my body tremble with pleasure.
Having exhaled and gazed up in thanks as i sat there tingling, i was suddenly given another breath before i had time to recover. Overwhelmed at this second burst of pleasure, i trembled and flinched as i inhaled again. My mask filled with her sweet air as i took it all in. Holding the breath and trembling as my heart raced and my body started to get by hotter.
As i looked up at the Mistress and exhaled with a slow breath, my head swimming, body tingling and fighting to keep my composure.
Two such breaths in a row is a very rare treat and i hardly believed my luck, before something else happened. Mistress Rubbergirl, grinning happily at my current state then proceeded to blow a series of short sharp breaths into my mask. In a constant effort to tease me further.

I am getting myself all excited now just thinking about it as i type these words. I think it says so much about the manner of my restrictions and confinement that I am so easily pleased. Without any physical contact i can be brought to the brink of ecstasy as my body craves the intimacy that is so often unobtainable.
For this very reason I adore my Mistress. Mistress Loola has shaped me into a loving rubber pet who will not only bend to her every whim but is also filled with a sense of pent up passion and energy for the slightest moment of pleasure.
Mistress Rubbergirl has earned a place in my heart over the last couple of weeks from her commitment and care to my life. So, having her treat me in such a way is why i got so excited from such a small thing. Her breath was intoxicating and i am simply thrilled that she was able to thrill me in such a way. Seriously, I got a little carried away *grins*

But, as always, in the bigger picture it is all down to Mistress Loola. Her rules and restrictions, combined with the manner in which she has shaped and cared for me are all part of the reason I can be teased in such a seemingly simple way.
I hope my Mistress will not mind my moment of pleasure. I am always mindful of her feelings and never wish to do anything she would not approve of. But, at the same time, i am sure that Mistress Rubbergirl is the safest person to be with in the mean time and i know that my Mistress only wants me to happy as much as i want the same for her. Especially in her absence.

So, it was the night of rubber ladies. What more can say. Rubber makes the heart grow fonder *winks*

Downtime

A very brief post today by my normal standards. (Yes you can rest easy, i won't wear you out today^^) This is mainly because i was not online too much yesterday, so there is little to share for once.

The most important thing to mention though is that i did get to speak with my Mistress for a short period. Although, it was so brief i did not actually get to see her in person, which is a little saddening. She assured me though that she is thinking of me and that hopefully time will be more on our side soon as she hopes to be more present soon.
It goes without saying that this prospect has me tingling at the very thought. I cannot wait to be with her more regularly again. Everyone is being so kind to me in Mistress Loola's absence, but i will only be complete when she is with me once more.

The remainder of my time yesterday was spent sitting in the rubber room greeting people and passing the time as usual. Miss Thina's kitten was with me for a while. She always seems happy to see me and is also testing her abilities it seems. She was only using emotes yesterday like myself and on top of this she has been given a name changer by her Mistress, so that she is represent in chat as being 'Thina's Little Kitten'.
It makes me smile to see her developing and to see that her Mistress is slowly moulding her into the perfect pet she obviously hopes to achieve. I really look forward to seeing more of their development together and i will be keeping my eyes in Miss Thina's blog in the hope for more interesting stories of the two of them.

Oh and before i go, a quick mention of a gorgeous looking blue rubber doll i played with called Apollo. She looks so delectable in her tight outfit and i must give compliments to her Mistress. Even though i did help get her into trouble.
The dolly enjoyed me nuzzling her so much that she got a bit carried away and as a result was given some electric shocks by her Mistress. Hopefully she did not mind too much though. I wonder what trouble i can get her into next time? hehe

Roll on the weekend and more fun times ahead i am sure *winks*

Uplifted

Well, 24 hours is a long time as a pet. Long enough for my mood to brighten and to have experienced a pleasant evening to help me through some of the melancholy that i felt a little earlier.
Some people picked up on the sightly sadder tone than usual in my last blog post. I was merely trying to express how difficult this life can be occasionally. It is not always sunshine and rainbows. But then, what is? I have hopes and expectations like everyone, but patience is a virtue as they always say and I am still content, still proud to be the way i am. More importantly, still adoring of my Mistress and looking forward to seeing her again.

Mistress Rubbergirl, whom, ensured with my care when ever my Mistress is away, was very supportive last night. She took the time to reassure me of the love that both my Mistress and she feel for me. Holding my head and looking into my eyes as she spoke to me, expressing her understanding of my role. The way i live and devote myself to Mistress Loola and how tricky that can be.


Resting my head on her knee and taking in her support as i listened carefully, was very uplifting and i thank her for the time she puts into looking out for me. Even though i am not her property. She seems honoured that Mistress Loola asked her to watch over me and takes that responsibility very seriously. So i always ensure i give her my full attention, trying my best to please her, as i am sure my Mistress would want me to.
When Mistress Loola is away i am her representative in the rubber room. I carry her name over me at all times, so i always aim to be the best pet anyone has ever seen. To make people envious of her. It's a fun game for me to play. *winks*
But, i must thank of course Mistress Loola for being aware of the needs of this pet and having the forethought to ask Mistress Rubbergirl to keep her eye on me. It is another hint towards my Mistress awareness and care. I am a very affectionate pet, who despite my inability to chat to people in a 'normal' manner, does love company and affection. Like most animals do. So i am grateful for her actions. Even from afar.

As the evening rolled on more and more people seemed to appear and join what seems to be becoming 'our' sofa. *smiles* Lycra, Alistair, Viktoria and more joined us to relax and chat. I sit there, happily nuzzling people's boots and listening in on the conversation. I have noticed Mistress Rubbergirl always seems to end up surrounded by lots of people where ever we sit. Maybe she is just very popular, i am not sure. But, it's always a busy and fun time to try and follow.


Viktoria being there last night reminded me of a conversation i had with my Mistress the other day. Mistress Loola pointed out how interesting it was from reading my blog that my view of things shows how it is the 'little' things that matter to a pet.

[2010/05/18 14:01] Loola Lassally: V.I.P.s are not worth a mention, but seemless small things mean alot

This is because when i first met Lady Viktoria, i had no idea who she is. I have no idea who anyone is after all. So, i cannot prejudge people, or be affected by reputation as that stuff is meaningless to me. I can only respond and base my feelings on people by their actions or words. Nothing more.
Lady Viktoria approached me to ask how or where i got my hair the style it is. In a rubbery texture. I did my best to answer her and treated her like any other person. Which, afterwards, Mistress Loola found quite amusing. The fact that supposedly people are normally fawning over her and making a big thing of her presence. Due to the popular boots that she designs.

I was slightly taken aback when Mistress Loola explained this point to me, but i understood the effect that was expressing. I am shaped by my Mistress to see things in a different way and to explore the world as a pet. With her as the centre of all things. If this means that everyone else drifts into the crowd then so be it. As long as i know where my Mistress is, i will be fine *winks*

Every Positive has a Negative

An odd feeling fills me today. Anyone who knows me or has read enough of my blog will know that i don't mention too many negative things. Usually because i am lucky enough to not have many of them. I lead a very privileged existence and i know it. I am a very lucky pet, to lead such a blessed life under the rule of one of the finest Mistress' i could ever imagine.

Last night was one i had looked forward to as my Mistress had told me before hand that she should be online. Which with her busy schedule recently is a major cause for excitement.
I was thrilled to see my Mistress and that is an understatement. It is not easy to put into my words that happiness i feel being alongside her. Even for a short while. She is quite simply everything i need.
But, my Mistress is also an extremely popular figure and rightly so *smiles*. She makes the finest masks and is generally respected for her fine personality. Not to mention the fact that having trained and surrounded herself with some amazing dolls and a certain pet, Mistress Loola catches people's attention where ever she goes. I guess having a bright pink pet chasing round after you does tend to catch ones eye hehe

Anyway. This means that when Mistress Loola does reappear in busy areas such as the rubber room after a prolonged break, she is in high demand. I understand this of course. If anything it makes me proud to have such a well known respected owner and i do not begrudge her anything.
But, i also know how hectic she has it and how many things/people she has to deal with. My Mistress mentioned to me at one point last night that her delay in responding was because she had 12 IM conversations going on with various people.
This makes it hard for a creature like me. I am so happy to see my Mistress and i am keen (like everyone else who is probably speaking with her) to catch up, to chat, to just be with her. But, after having waited and stuck to my role, I have to sit quietly and patiently while the world catches up with her.
This is not a complaint about my Mistress. I love Mistress Loola so much and she always makes sure i am looked after. It is more just a statement on how hard it can be to live this life.

This blog after all is about a pets life and this is one of things that this pet is having to deal with. Most of the other people who catch up with my Mistress and hurry to chat after a gap in communication, are i am sure able to have done other things in the mean time. To have chatted to people, traveled and more. They have been able to fill the loss of my Mistress with other occupations and hobbies until such time as they can chat to her again.
For me....I cannot teleport, or chat, use notecards, inventory, or see the world from a bigger picture. My world is my Mistress. So when my Mistress is away, it is as if i have lost the world, i have lost my main focus and my ability to share so many things with the ONLY person who can truly understand me.
But...as a good pet should. I sit, i rest my head on Mistress lap and watch and listen as the world revolves around her and i wait for the good times to come. The times alone. The times when all those voices in the ether will fade for just long enough for us to be able to enjoy the calm for a moment more.

So don't think this life is easy. It is harder than you know and yet....I keep my head high and carry on with my path. Through loyalty, love and devotion. Mistress Loola deserves all of this of this from me and more. How could i not put up with tough moments like this for someone so special?

Time Flies

Yesterday continued the fun time i have been having recently. There are sometimes quiet parts of the day when i am in the rubber room. The periods of the day when there are no parties and things going on can be more difficult as i roam the room, sometimes alone, hoping for people to turn up that i can pester with my attention *smiles*
But, I saw Miss Thina and her kitten today. It is always good to see people who respect me and Miss Thina seems most kind. She has even been kind enough to mention me in her own blog as i seem to made an impression on her. So, hello Miss Thina if you are reading *winks*
I am honoured of course, to be allowed to sit along side her own kitten sometimes. I do not wish to interfere with their time together in anyway. I know more than anyone how important that time is. So i hope they will never be afraid to tell me if they need time alone. Because other wise i may just nuzzle them to death with my affection hehe

Mistress Rubbergirl is even more special. She has informed me how much she cares for me and that even though i am not hers and she is merely a guardian as it were that i have earned a place in her heart. Through the efforts and devotion i display both to my own Mistress and herself.
I feel very peaceful when i sit alongside Mistress Rubbergirl. The security and support that her presence gives me is such an amazing thing and i am grateful for her efforts to look after me when Mistress Loola is away.
At the same time though, in a similar note to my thoughts on Mistress Thina, i am always aware that i am not hers and that she has dolls of her own to look after.
Hopefully i am not interfering with their time and needs. I am not always sure when they are around, or how much time they get with her when they are. I do not want to get in anyone's way and i hope that the Mistress will still be able to fill her own needs and that of her subs. I am sure if they ever need her i can find ways to make the time pass.
Dont get me wrong. As i said before i love to be with her all the time. I just want to be sure i am mindful of my place and i also do not wish to upset anyone else from occupying so much of her time.

But, of course, at the end of the day i am probably being silly. Mistress Rubbergirl is the one in charge of her dolls and her time. I am sure, she wll do what ever she sees fit and make sure that things are she wants them.
I should not think on such issues. It is far too much for a pet to be concerned with. Maybe i will just focus on nuzzling her boots and be happy. After all, that's all i really need *winks*

Security

Today the highlight of the day was simple....Mistress Loola came online to see me for the first time in days. She has been kept at bay a lot recently through RL. It is one of those things, i know. I would be lying if i said i did not miss my Mistress every day she is not around. I do. I ache for her constantly. She is my reason for being.

But, RL comes first. We all know this, so what type of pet would i be, let a lone person, if i could not cope for a bit without my Mistress while she is away. Pets are devoted and loving creatures who adore and serve without question.

We are loyal and constant. If you have a pet dog in real life, it does not stop loving you when you are away for work or holiday. It may miss you of course, but once back together it will be as devoted as always no matter the gap.

That is how i should be for my Mistress. I am her pet. Her loving creature. Her absence will not write that off. Too many people/subs in SL expect things how they want them all the time. A constant and rewarding way of life. Which, i can understand to an extent. It is not 'real' in the truest sense of the word. But, then what is real? My love for my Mistress is as real as anything, so that means it is worthy of the same standards it would receive in RL. Through thick and thin.

I know that is the best way for me and for any true, loving pet. In the long run, it will serve me well too. Commitment brings it rewards in time and i know that my Mistress will be appreciative of my devotion and that when she has the time and chance to reward me. I will have my moments of pleasure. Not that i desire anything. Simply her presence is enough to keep me happy.

Anyway, Mistress Loola popped on to see how i was doing. Unfortunately, she was not able to stay long, but, even 5mins with my Mistress is enough to keep me going for sometime. It is enough time for her to let me know she cares and looks out for me. Which is most important.

Plus, as we spoke, it turns out Mistress was playing with my outfit.

Mistress changed my colour from red to pink. Maybe she just felt i needed a change or she wanted me stand out for some reason. I have no idea. But, i am always thrilled that she can so easily alter my look. The mods she has put on all my items means she can alter my colour scheme at any time without changing my clothes which i think is quite clever. Another reason to be proud of my wonderful Mistress.

Any regular readers will know that Mistress Rubbergirl Lionheart has been looking out for me over the past week or so. A friend of my Mistress and myself, she has been kind enough to watch over me and keep me company when ever she has been around. Something for which i am very grateful.

Since Mistress will still be busy for a few more days she has asked Mistress Rubbergirl to continue to watch over me. The prospect of which is both flattering and enjoyable.

The fact that my Mistress cares enough for me to ensure i am not completely alone in her absence, shows how much she cares for my feelings and that is another plus for me.

On top of that Mistress Rubbergirl has been a fantastic friend recently and i am very happy in her company. I feel safe near her and know that she will look out for me.

In fact she told me that she promised Mistress Loola she would look after me as if i was one of her own dolls. Which is why i am so flattered. I think i have made a good impression on Mistress Rubbergirl. She seems to appreciate my endeavours greatly and respects completely my devotion.

I know that she has read all of my blog from beginning to end and that she is aware therefore of all my restrictions and feelings. So, i feel safe and comforted knowing that she has taken such a thorough interest in me and i am also happy to know that my blog seems good enough to hold people's attention. It can be hard to judge as the writer, so i am grateful for any feedback.

On a side note, Mistress Rubbergirl appeared in a different outfit for the latter part of the evening and i have to say, it caught my eye. *winks* Of course, she always looks lovely in her catsuits, but, this little dress shows off her legs and i couldn't help but be enticed by them.

I am drawn to nice boots and legs anyway. I always have been. But, being on the floor all the time as a pet means the part of people i see the most is their legs. So i cannot help but notice when someone shows them off in such a way. Hopefully Mistress Rubbergirl won't mind me discussing her legs with the world. If anything i think she can proud of them hehe.

So, with my guardian to watch over me i will count the minutes until i see my Mistress again. Hopefully that could be tuesday according to my Mistress. So i will cross my paws in hope.

Because as much love and attention i may get from people (and it is all fantastic btw) the thing that i would give it all up for, is the chance to spend more time with my Mistress.

I am not complete without her. There is always a gap left in me when she logs out and i cannot wait for it be filled again. But, until then i will keep up my good endeavours and ensure that i carry her name with pride. *smiles*

Ladies

Sometimes you have days where nothing really happens and yet, it feels like the day has been full. Fun and action packed.

Yesterday was one of those days. As is usual i am mingling in the rubber room where Mistress Loola left me as i have no option to go anywhere else. But, as the time passes over the course of a week, i become more recognisable to the regulars and people who have been present over that time.

It gets more and more difficult to keep up with all the greetings and friendly comments i receive. Don't get me wrong, it is a great feeling to be so well received. I am honoured that so many people take the time to meet me or give me a mention. But, it can just be a lot to take in. I am memorising some people from appearance and gradually learning names as i catch people talking to each other. But there are some people who have petted me more than once this week and i still have no idea of their name who they are.

But, that of course is the life of a pet.

The humans around me do not think the same way or understand how i see the world. So how can i expect them to introduce themselves. There is no need. I know my place, i know what is expected of me. My Mistress gave me these challenges to deal with on a daily basis as that is her want. That is the standard she wants me to be able to deal with and i am fairly hopeful that (so far) i have been able to keep with her wishes. It is not easy, but then where would the fun be if it was?

Mistress Rubbergirl Lionheart (above) has already been mentioned in my blog this week as she has been keeping me company quite often. It is nice to be appreciated by people and when ever she comes to the rubber room i am always quick to go and meet her as I know she will be pleased to see me.

I did smile to myself today as she normally appears with a corset over her catsuit and yet, today she was wearing a body harness which looked quite like the one i am strapped into. Maybe mine looked so good that she wanted one too hehe *winks*

Before i go completely off on a tangent i should say that the evening was quite pleasant though. Mistress Rubbergirl and several other Mistress' reclined on the sofas together, chatting and greeting people.

I sat happily on the floor amidst them all, as i listened in on their chat, allowing myself to be petted. Nuzzling people's boots and trying to be adorable as ever *smiles*

Mistress Thina is another of the Mistress' who was sat around me. She has also been kind enough to pet me a few times this week and is always complimentary. She has a cute little kitty of her own, who sat next to me on the floor.

We nuzzled against each other sat there obediently, watching the ladies and playing together. She is a very pretty little thing in pink and i hope she will do Miss Thina proud as the Mistress seems most thoughtful and i think she should have someone deserving to serve her.

The kitty has only been in Mistress Thina's ownership for a about a week, so they are in that honeymoon period that flies by so fast. *smiles* But, the Mistress seems very nice and i wish them a long and healthy relationship together.

It is a warming thought to think i have been in the service of my Mistress for several months now. My devotion is as strong as ever. In fact, i think my adoration for my Mistress is actually stronger and growing all the time.

The manner in which i am kept makes me so reliant and centred around my Mistress that with each passing day i love her more and more. Even if i do not see her that day. Her presence in my daily life is lasting, through her rules and restrictions. I am my Mistress pet, make no mistake. It is all anyone could ask for. Well, all that anyone with a severe rubber fetish and a very submissive streak could ask for anyway *winks*

Mingling

A pleasant day in the rubber room today. I may not have been lucky enough to see my Mistress today, but i still managed to have fun as always. Sitting with my friends and meeting new faces as well.

My friend Alistair was able to catch up with me today. We have not seen much of each other over the last couple of weeks, but, it is always a pleasure so to see him. Although he looked a little different today. He was using a new, more muscle bound shape and he seems to be deciding on what is the best look for him currently.

It was quite funny, sitting there and inspecting him as he asked my opinion and then began scurrying through his inventory to find his other shape and skin to compare it with.

I am probably not the best judge for these things. My view point not being the best for one thing, but he always looks good of course. (although i promised him i would say that^^) I am sure even if he does alter his image it will still look magnificent hehe.

It was a of friends in general as i also got to spend more time with Rubbergirl Lionheart today, who, of course, has been so kind to me over the past few days. The Mistress was in good spirits today and showed me her kindness as always.

She seemed delighted with the fact that she had earned a big mention in my blog the previous day and hope she gets used to it, as at the moment i seem to see her at least once a day *winks*

I must confess Mistress Lionheart has discovered one of my favourite treats over the last couple of days. Which is that on occasions she will lift my head up and exhale into the intake valve of my gas mask. Previously the only person who has ever done this to me is my beloved Mistress Loola herself.

It is a thrilling treat and something which really turns me on. But, i hope and think my Mistress will not mind me having such a moment every now and again. At least not from a friend. It is nice to get a little treat or reward for your devotion sometimes and i think Mistress Lionheart just appreciates the effort i put in for my Mistress.

The feeling of exhilaration i get when someone i care for breathes into my mask in this manner is intoxicating. It is as if i can taste them in the air. I love to close my eyes and breath in at that moment as i savour the closeness that moment brings me with that person. Since my real face is hidden away and my skin is rarely touched. These moments bring me closer to someone than you can possibly imagine. I know that i reusing their own air, the very breath that has just filled their lungs and i can literally smell them as their scent fills my mask and i almost feel like i a drifting away, as everything else fades away from me.

If this is how i feel when someone like Mistress Lionheart does this to me, i wonder if you can imagine how i react when my Mistress does this to me? I am not sure i can even put it into words..

It is lots of fun basically, as i wander around the club and mingle with people. I met a plethora of pets today too. I am sure there was a time when i would spend days being the only proper pet of any sort to be seen here. But, last night i nuzzled and sat with two others. Princess Cookie i have met before and the other a cute rubber puppy. It was quite a sight for others i am sure as the 3 of us sat there nuzzling and emoting to each other. 3 rubber pets all looking nice and shiny in their attire, as well as devoted in their actions. I am sure we will see more of each other in the future.

But, it is also a little overwhelming sometimes. At one point yesterday i logged into to find the rubber room quite busy and active, which is of course a great thing. However, as a regular visitor i was greeted by many voices and questions and i couldn't keep up with what was going on at all for a few mins.

People were asking me questions about my Mistress as well as myself. Some one even beckoned me to come closer to them amid the chat and i had no idea who it was or where they were in the room. I began to feel a little embarrassed as well as worrying that i may appear rude if i did not comply. People do not always realise of course that i see no names and only have mouse look enabled. All humans look and sound the same to me, i have to remember my friends through my memory of their physical appearance more than anything else. So, there are moments such as this where i can on occasion get stuck.

I do my best to emote my confusion. Making a show of looking around and perking up my ears to see who is calling me. Trying over time to explain my difficulties and although it usually works out ok, it can be difficult.

So don't think it's all fun and games, even mingling can be tricky ;)

Pet Play

It was a wonderful night last night. As far as this pet was concerned anyway. This pet felt much love and affection last night. Both from my Mistress and from friends who look out and care for me.

Rubbergirl Lionheart is a Mistress who has been friends with my Mistress and I for sometime. I believe actually i met her a while before i ever became the property of Mistress Loola and yet, during my time as a pet i have always seen her around. Often in conversation with my Mistress or just hanging out in the rubber room as she mingles with her group of latex loving friends. *smiles*

Mistress Lionheart was reclining on the sofa last night and called me over as a entered the rubber room, to greet and pet me. I am always so grateful to be given any form of affection. The slightest recognition is always a great reward when you are as restricted as i am. So, i was happy to see a caring face and show my appreciation.

I sat with Mistress Lionheart for a large part of the evening, resting my head on her legs as she sat on the sofa and tickled behind my ears. I love to show my obedience and devotion to people who treat me with love and respect. I am a caring pet after all, like any loyal animal.

I also saw Erica last night. She appeared to greet me and stroke my hair, asking how i have been. It has been so long since i have been Erica. We were such close friends for a while. Our paths have kept us further apart recently and she looks completely different to how i remember her, but, i am sure she knows that i still care. Being so locked down requires a great deal of understanding from my friends i guess. Especially for those that knew me before i was a pet as they have lost my random babbling chat (although maybe that's a good thing^^) and can only communicate with me when they are in the same location. But, i am fortunate that most people respect and understand my choices as well as my desires and love for my Mistress. To still have such friends in my position is a true gift, so i am always sure to nuzzle their legs extra hard. Just to show my appreciation. *grins*

Just when i was thinking how great the night had been, Mistress Loola appeared in the dead of night to make my fun complete.

I was so excited to hear my Mistress arriving in the rubber room that as i ran to meet her i went completely the wrong way, blinded from a clear view by my mask as i took a full circuit of the room, before settling happily before her.

After catching up with me and greeting other friends, Mistress was fantastic enough to take me out for a little 'training run' as she called it.

She summoned me to a location i have never seen before where i was confronted with a glass maze. It looked a little daunting at first as Mistress prepared to open the door to send me in. My task to get through as quickly as possible of course and show just what a good pet i can be.

In fact i surprised even myself as i scrambles through the maze as quickly as i could. I am not sure exactly of the time i achieved. I am sure it was under a minute. Mistress seemed impressed with my speed at least which was all i cared about. She even complimented how well i was adapting to my mask HUD. I see the world a little differently to everyone else after all. Locked in mouse look with too small ovals to look through, i cannot see the maze from a wide angle. I am of course, literally hunting my way through it. But, i feel i am pretty used to my HUD now. It is what i live with every day and such it no longer seems an issue. It is just how i am and how i should be. It helps to enforce my position and my submission to my Mistress. So how could i do anything but enjoy it. *winks*

The night ended not too long after these escapades. My Mistress had some queries to deal with. In fact, she had to deal with queries from people pestering her with desires to be a pet like me. It seems that as i go about my daily life, even without my Mistress, i gain attention and even envy from some people.

There are many people who seek a good Mistress and supposedly the desire to be a rubber pet or doll. But, so many people go about these things the wrong way. Just approaching people out the blue expecting to be wanted. Plus, on top of that, being a pet is not a simple and easy life. It may seem perfect to some and indeed with the right efforts it is very rewarding. But, it is not easy. It takes effort and commitment. Not just for a little while, but 24/7. I would hope this blog goes some way to help people understand the trials and tribulations of life as a pet. That is sort of the purpose i guess. Maybe my recount is too glowing a report? I could be harsher i guess with some of the more difficult moments. But, it is difficult to write any other way for me as i love my position and my role so much and my Mistress even more. So, i guess i will carry on the same way. But at least i am happy :)

Time and time again

Oh how the time flies...if only there were more hours in the day. Or more time to myself, or, of course, if only SL were RL. Then there would be no stress, no worries and no gaps in my fulfilment.

The time that builds some days recently between my Mistress and i seeing each other has unfortunately grown a bit. As RL weighs heavy on all us from time to time and we are no different i am afraid. Hence, such a gap between this post and my last.

But, as always, this is no reflection on my Mistress qualities and has no impact on my devotion to her. I am as committed and beloved as ever. She is still my reason for being and still my only true care.

Seeing her last night for the first time in about a week filled my heart with warmth and reminds me where i feel at home.

My Mistress was actually quite busy, chatting to some friends as she tried to help answer some scripting queries. Mistress Loola is quite clever after all *winks*

So, generally, i sat beside her in that loving way i do. My gaze fixed firmly upon my Mistress. With only her filling up the view from my mask as i breath and savour being so close to her once again. Being able to whisper her occasionally to talk in private. She is, after all, the only person who can IM me. I am hers alone to communicate with freely. So being at her side, able to chat when needed fills me with pride and happiness. My Mistress is the only one who can truly know me and for that i am forever thankful.

Hopefully, we will see each other more soon. As things will always even themselves out in time.

Until then, i am now in the rubber room. Free to mingle with friends and observe strangers from my lowly position.

It is a good life really. Even during times i do not see Mistress often. Because, people are always impressed and envious of my appearance, restrictions and obedience and it is Mistress Loola's love and care for me that makes all those feelings and opinions of me possible. So, even in her absence, her presence is always in effect. *smiles*

Quiet times

Time is moving slowly this week. When ever i am logged in recently i am just biding my time until she returns. I have been very unlucky in terms of lacking time with her recently and i sincerely hope she is ok.

Without her, things are never as exciting. I rely on her greatly as i have virtually no independence left. I am merely a pet after all, reliant on my owner to look after me. No matter how skilled i may be, i am nothing without Mistress Loola.

I do know however that as with everything and everyone, RL comes first and that in time things will be back to normal. My Mistress is just as deserving of my understanding as i am of hers. We are nothing without a respect for each other and so i will wait. Like a good pet should. Until my Mistress returns.

The sim i was left to roam on when i last saw my Mistress was full of fetich shops and other such intrigues, which i was happily walking through, investigating when ever i needed to pass the time.

However, on logging in the other day i found that the sim had been redesigned a bit in my absence. The shops seem to have all been compressed into a 2 storey shopping mall for a more convenient design. The problem with this for little old me, is that my last spot is now outside of the building. A building which has no 'normal' entrance. I cannot use landmarks or teleports and i cannot fly, meaning that basically....i am now locked outside. Unable to get inside.

I sat for a while on the grass, staring across the horizon wondering what to do with myself next. Having spent some time already trying to access the mall, i realised it was a fruitless task. So, i sat...and thought. I sat for some time, listening to the sound of my own breathing.

The complete silence around me, meaning that the noise of my gasmask filled my ears with every breath as i sat there and thought of Mistress and my place in the world.

In an odd way it was actually quite soothing. No, other noises, no distractions. Just me and my breathing reverberating through my head.

A bit of solitude can be good sometimes. It helps to relax and clear the head. If you get the chance to be locked outside a shopping mall with no way in, I recommend you try it too *winks*

After quite some time, i eventually decided to roam further afield. Beyond the edge of the horizon to see what i could find. I wondered over the green fields and around some restricted land until i eventually stumbled into someone's garden.

In this garden i finally met some new faces and felt happy to have found some company. A couple of ladies there were chatting about various things and after a while greeted me as i tried my best to show my affection and happiness at meeting them.

The one lady is called Miss Sarah i believe and she seemed most amicable. Nearby, on a stone plinth sits a far more interesting subject though. A Tiger frozen as a statue, watching over all of us. This Tigress also seems restricted to emotes and trapped in her own form of submission. I felt a little kinship as i do with most people who show such devotion to someone. Plus, this Tiger looks particularly cute if you ask me *smiles*

I rubbed against the base of her stone plinth and purred, showing my affection as we bonded and tried our best to communicate. There was a mutual recognition there which i definitely appreciated and i look forward to seeing her again soon, as i was unable to stay much longer on this night. But, as i will be returning to the same spot soon. I am sure i will learn more soon.

Anyway, i will bring you more news soon as always and hopefully i will soon see Mistress Loola as i simply incomplete without her. A lonely animal wandering lost until i am recovered. I wish my Mistress well and hope we will be together soon. x

Devotion

Been a few days since my last post. RL takes its toll some time on all of us. Cutting down on my time to write for you. As well as my time with Mistress Loola, which, is of course much more upsetting to be missing out on.But, i know that these days come and go. Soon enough i will be at her side once more and rewarded for my devotion and efforts. At least that is always my hope. I of course have no say in the matter. I will simply wait as i must and live the life i am given.

Mistress Loola rules my world and i am happy to have it so. Even when we miss each other for a while, i am kept going by the knowledge of the fact that i am honouring her desires and acting in her name. This should truly be enough for most people, as my Mistress is such a wonder that being given the chance to serve her in such a committed fashion is a real blessing and one that i carry with pride.

Alistair as always has been on hand to keep me company in my time alone. I am on some sim full of fetish shops. Free to roam and investigate as i can. Alistair often comes to find me when i appear online and talks to me of all sorts.

I sometimes wonder if i keep him company more than he does me *winks*. Being so reliant on emotes for communication i am not always the most fascinating conversation and yet, he tries his best to share stories or chat about things are for each of us. I am truly grateful for his friendship. It is nice to be appreciated and i think he respects the devotion i show to my Mistress, as well as understanding how challenging it can be to have such restrictions in my life. Even though i enjoy it and do not find my pet status hard to live in, it is touching to be cared for.

We saw an interesting cyberslut of some sort last night while mooching around. I have enclosed a pic below as it is an interesting look. Alistair seemed very impressed and as such we had to check the nearby shops after to see where it was from. I think Alistair wanted to buy it to add to his collection, but who knows. All i did was follow him around *grins*

My pictures look a little different nowadays, since i have had my hud enforced fully by Mistress Loola. I could of course, have screenshots not show hud items, but, i feel that this would be wrong. The whole point of my blog is to give you all an insight into the life i live as a pet and the view i have of the world is an integral part of that.

The two small ovals through which i view the world as they fog up with my breath, have a huge impact on my demeanour. I can only see in front of me and this has one key importance. That when i sit before my Mistress (i am always supposed to sit facing my Mistress whenever she is around, unless told otherwise) i can only see her and no one else. Sitting there gazing up at her, keeping viewed in my lenses means she becomes the only thing that matters. The only thing to focus my eyes on and the only thing to care about. The centre of my universe...and i love her for making me feel so attached to her.

She has over time made me completely reliant on her. My Mistress owns me, body and soul. I am helpless without her and i would have it no other way.

So. For bette or worse, i am Mistress Looa's pet. For as long as she will have me and how could i ever want anything more?

Friends

Last night was a wonderful night in the rubber room. Well, almost. Mistress Loola was not around, so the night was not perfect and never could be. But, in her absence the nicest thing that can happen is to see some friends and meet new people along the way too.

I was sitting in the rubber room. Working on my last blog post as it happens and in my distraction i was surrounded before i knew it by two of my dearest friends. Alistair and Claudia had crept up on me and were stood there ready to pet and greet me with warmth.

It is so touching to know that people who know me take the time and effort to come and greet me and give me some affection. I will be sure to continue to be as attentive as ever, in the hope that my loyalty continues to bring such rewarding kindness. Pets earn their treats and i feel like i am doing just that *smiles*

Claudia was looking as lovely as ever. I adore the boots she wears and love to nuzzle against them when ever i can. She is such a tender girl, always looking out for me and i am thankful to have become familiar with her as there are far worse people i could be sitting next to late at night *grins*

Alistair often comes to check on me. Especially when Mistress Loola is offline. He seems to care greatly for my welfare and appreciates the commitment i put in for my Mistress.

As such he tends to check on how i am doing, coming to say hi and petting me. Where ever i may be on a particular day and i love him for that.

For a pet, i have built some great friends along the way and hope i will continue to break new boundaries over time.

Whilst sat next to Claudia as the evening wore on, i witnessed the arrival of another pet, in a similar vein to myself but with a few key differences.

Her name was Cookie and she too could only emote and is in a similar crouched low on the floor. She has a similar ao infact, but with a few modifications. Cookie appears with wings and a slightly more mythical appearance, but other than that seems to be much the same.

We investigated each other closely through our masks and nuzzled each other. Taking the time to work each other out and share feelings on each of our appearances.

Some of the people in the club even commented on how cute we looked playing together. My black counterpart and I bonding over our similar view of the world.

It is amazing the people you meet in SL and even more amazing when you meet people of a similar disposition. There is truly something for everyone and you are never alone in your fetish or desires as there is always someone out there just like you *winks*

Pet views

Living in mouseview with my mask hud locked on, is an interesting experience. One that i feel i am growing into already as it makes me feel so like a pet should do.

I am truly made to feel low down, forced to look up at everyone if i wish to see their faces. Even then, the best view i have is of their legs and really feel like a lowly animal should. Every one has to look down on me and i truly feel it. Plus, in a bizarre way people seem more overpowering and glamorous to me from this position.

I think it is the sheer height they present when standing over me. I cannot help but feel overwhelmed and in awe of the humans around me.

I have also found that now i am locked into this lifestyle it is becoming even harder to grasp who is who and which humans around me are actually speaking.

This is because, although i have not seen names for a while, i was able to mouse over people and see who was showing as 'this stranger' or 'a person' etc. Which if their was no one else around being given that title in chat then you could at least put the clues together and see who is speaking. Even if i don't know their names.

But, with this option taken away from me now, i am truly lost as to what is going on. More than ever the humans around me are like some foreign beings from another land.

I am made to feel often like a mysterious bystander as i sit and watch them interacting with each other. Trying to make sense of it all.

Until of course, someone speaks to me at which point i feel excited and happy to be noticed, although when Mistress is not around to help me, it can be very tricky to work out who i should be thanking if their is a few people around. But, oh well. I guess that just means i will have to be extra nice to everyone as always *winks*

I was wondering around the rubber room investigating the people last night when i came to a very pretty girl in one of the chairs, whom i sat next to and gave some attention. Rubbing her boots with my head and purring happily.

Sitting beside her i realised how small i felt. Even with her sitting on the chair i was no higher than her knees and her long boots fill up my vision with wonder. I have to gaze upwards to see her face and feel humbled to get a little affection as she has look down to notice me there.

It truly makes a difference. Something so simple as changing my view of the world has a drastic impact in the way i perceive others and the way everything makes me feel.

Mistress Loola was right to enforce such commitment on me as i truly feel in my place now and i am indebted to her for giving me the chance to experience it.

Plus, her contact is now my utter focus and attention as she has the only chance to speak with me directly. The only chance to control me and direct my life and as such i am hers alone to love and adore. I will be at her side giving her my adoration every second as she is truly the centre of my universe.

On a separate note, Mistress Loola was kind enough to take some pictures the other night when her 2 dolls and I were all in attendance to serve her for the night.

We all visited the rubber room together and Mistress had us all dance for her entertainment. Even little old me. Which is a rare treat for such an animal! *smiles*

So, with thanks to my dear Mistress, below is a pic of us all in action. The Loola family at play *winks*

Reunion

Mistress logs in and all is well. There is no happier feeling than seeing Mistress Loola come online, knowing that i will soon be with her once more.

Within moments i am teleported to her side and reunited as i return my full attention to her and have the chance to speak with and talk of how things are going. Simple things, but they make everything worth while.

But, tonight was more than just a one on one reunion. Two of my Mistress' dolls also came home tonight and the 3 of us sat in adoration. Surrounding her in her lounger as she surveyed her property. We are were all given matching red outfits tonight to match Mistress Loola and as we sit together, we really do look like some sort of family. A slightly kinky one maybe, but at least we have a theme. *smiles*

Tonight was also special to me for another reason. Mistress Loola felt playful enough while surrounded by her subjects to further my progression into her control and my life as a pet, by enforcing the hud on my gas mask. Restricting me to mouse look from now on.

The breath fogs my lenses as i breath clouding my view and i must gaze high up to see my Mistress clearly.

Being a pet, kneeling low on the floor means that my most immediate view of Mistress Loola is now her boots and legs. Which is of course, nothing to complain about! Mistress Loola has a beautiful body and i am blessed to be able to look at it any sense. Especially as i often get to sit so close to those very legs as i purr happily. Safe in my favourite spot at her side *grins*

Seeing the world in this way and not being able to see myself anymore ensures that Mistress is now the complete focus of my attention. She gives me purpose, as my best chance of keeping up with things and pleasing her is to keep my gaze on her. To do otherwise would turn me away from her for one thing and that is not allowed. As a loving pet i must always sit watching my Mistress. She is all that matters to me. In fact, i have always loved to do so, but, now i have a greater sense of belonging. Everything else drifts out of view and my Mistress is more than ever the centre of my universe.

What more could anyone ask for?

Wandering

A quiet couple of days for activity and not too much to report. With RL causing to miss each other a bit, i am still in the club that we logged out in the other night.

A place called Dark Refuge, which seems to be very much in keeping with my spirit . *winks*

I have seen a few other pets while i have been here and even had a lovely meeting with a kitty named Cosma, who suffocated me for a moment by plugging up the valve of the breather on my mask. But, it was worth the lack of oxygen for the fun. *smiles*

The club seems to be a german sim. English is primarily the second language here, so i have to work extra hard to keep up with everything. But, i think i am doing ok. I am being polite and obedient as usual and doing my best to honour my Mistress. It seems to be working as i have been getting some nice responses from most of the people. Which is always a nice feeling when you have to work so hard at communication.

Mistress Loola will hopefully return soon though to keep me company once more. There is no one who can understand me like my Mistress. She is the only one who can hear my voice and fully be aware of my needs and feelings. As well as ensuring that her pet is doing exactly as she wishes.

I long to her see her everyday and can't wait to be at her side. But, i will wait till then, as i must. Because a good pet does as it is told and always waits for their Mistress.

Self Aware

Once again, the evil aspects of SL came into play recently. The rubber room sim was down when i logged in the other day and as such i ended up moved to some adult social hub in the meantime.

For most people this is a minor inconvenience who will then go elsewhere, or return to their home, once their sim is fixed.

When you are a simple pet though, reliant on your Mistress. This can be a bit more of an issue. My teleport abilities are restricted in every way. Only my Mistress can teleport me to where ever she may be. So when i get booted to a random location....I am stuck. At least until my Mistress logs in to bring me back to her.

But, as stressful as this can be at first. I always try and make the most of it. I try to explore where ever i end up and maybe even mingle a bit, in the hope of meeting some friendly people who have a moment to pamper a pet for a moment with some fuss.

You do see some strange people in these places. Shouting or bumping into people for example. But, my saving grace is that i am locked safely away in my mask and all my other bindings. So that no one can hurt me anyway. I am secured away for my Mistress, which fills me happiness. Plus, this is when IM restriction can feel quite nice as i don't have to worry about any strangers spamming me as it has no effect *winks* Life as a pet has it's bonuses.

Logging back in yesterday though, to find my Mistress already on line for once was a happy experience. It has been rare over the past week that she has been on so early and it is always a plus to spend even a minute of extra time with her. So it was a lovely evening.

Mistress Loola, summoned me too her and i found myself accompanying her in some fetish club we have never visited before. With various shops attached to it.

I took my place by my Mistress and purred happily as this is where i feel the happiest. Sat beside her beautiful figure and watching her closely as i savour every second in her presence.

On arriving Mistress altered my colour scheme to red. I think, so that i match her outfit, although red was also a main colour in the club. Either way, it is thrilling when she has such freedom to alter me as she wishes. I am just her pet to do with as she wishes and nothing makes me happier than being able to please her.

Mistress Loola said that after my arrival the number of IMs she got shot up and that she was suddenly very popular.

I take this as an immense compliment, although it is all due to my Mistress i think if people are impressed with me. She is the one who has helped me look so good, as she controls my image and set the rules by which i live. I merely do my best to abide by her and live up to her high standards. So, if i am able to impress people in doing so, then i am all the happy.

Mistress eventually allowed me to explore the club a little while she was busy. So, i gratefully wondered around and scuttled between all the dancers. Taking in the sights and peeking at the shops. All the time keeping one eye on my Mistress of course incase she needs me. But, i did not venture for too long, or too far, as i cannot bear to be from my Mistress for too long as she the centre of my world and all that i revolve around. Soon i trotted home and took my place with her once more and i beamed brightly as Mistress gave me a little pet for being good. *grins*

The other day i mentioned here how Mistress was planning to take my final freedom away next week some time. To complete my final step into being the complete pet for her.

After dwelling on this for quite some time, i believed i had thought of what this final action may be and when i discussed it with Mistress Loola, my fantasies it seems will become reality as she confirmed my theory with a smile.

Despite every restriction i have i am still self aware and able to see the world as many others do. Even if i don't know names and things, the visual aspect stays the same.

Soon however, Mistress will enforce the HUD onto my mask, restricting my view of the world as well and making me see the world through a pets eyes. When i look to Mistress, she will be all i see. The focus of everything and my own appearance and self will become unimportant. As Mistress puts it, she will become my identity as i lose the last thing that makes me independent and i become even more reliant on her. I will live for nothing else than to be her perfect pet and as i gazing up at her through the lenses of my mask will be the thing that keeps me focused and makes me happy. Mistress Loola is all i need to think about and i am happy to do so *smiles*

Attention

It has been an interesting time since Mistress Loola altered my colour scheme and overhauled my image. I always manage to get attention when mingling in the rubber room or elsewhere due to the way i express myself with my emotes. But, yesterday the main thing i noticed was people inspecting my new look and investigating this pet, perhaps, a little closer than before.

Those that know me, such as Claudia, Davis and a few other RR regulars, were quick to compliment me on finally having my tail and being a more complete animal. For which, i am very happy that people take such notice of me. It is very rewarding.

At one point though, for example, i was sat on the edge of the dance floor. Sitting beside my friend Claudia and watching the world go, when two ladies dressed in long black flowing outfits gathered in front of me. Sometimes, you just know you are the focus of a conversation and i immediately went on full alert, sitting up proudly as i felt myself being inspected.

The two ladies looked me over, maybe talking amongst themselves for all i know. But, in public the one was kind enough to say to the other that i was a very well made pet. To which the other lady heartily agreed.

I sat up on my hind legs in greeting and made an effort to impress. Thanking them for the compliment. Sure that my Mistress would be proud of the attention i am getting her.

As the one lady sat down on the floor to look at me closer, i learnt that it was Lady Sylvanas who as my memory serves me is often found in the rubber room and i felt extremely happy to have caught her attention. She inspected me on the same eye level and I stayed obediently still throughout the whole process of course as the world went on around me.

You never know who is watching you, or talking about you and since i bear my Mistress' name upon me, i must always set a high standard. As not only do i want her to be well thought of. But, i of course want my Mistress to be proud of me too.