Tinged with sadness

A quiet couple of days for me. I have not lingered in the rubber room as much as i normally do. So much so that i have not seen Mistress Rubbergirl or many other of my friends, since my last entry.
I did see Dess for a while yesterday. She is looking more attractive than ever in gorgeous little combo she has taken to wearing. Plus, she was wearing the mask my Mistress tends to wear most recently. One of her own designs of course, and it makes me feel a sense of familiar warmth as i stare up at her eyes hiding behind that lovely rubber mould. But, at the same time. It just enhances the longing and sadness i feel for being apart from my Mistress for a while now.

I know she would only be away for so long with important matters. RL must take priority, so i hope she is doing ok and that everything will work out soon.
But, there are of course times when it hits me hard and today i am feeling downbeat from it all. I feel incomplete without Mistress Loola and lacking purpose. My Mistress provides my welfare and being. Without her i sometimes just feel...lack lustre i guess.
I usually cope quite well in her absence i feel. Making the effort to impress in her name and feeling happy just to socialise in her honour. But, it has been a while now without any extended time with her and i think it was going take its toll on me some form eventually.

I am not changing my plans or dreams. Do not worry. I would not seek to change any of my commitments to my Mistress or my chosen life. It's just an expression of my feelings today. That's what this blog is all about after all. I am a loving pet, an adoring companion to keep my Mistress company. So, it is only natural to miss my owner when she is away.