Changes

Such a big couple of weeks in terms of changes and relationships. I have struggled to blog the last few days even when i have been able to be online, as i have found myself struggling to work out exactly where my role lies recently and what the future holds for me. Being able to be clear and honest about things in my blog is very important to me, so being unsure how to explain things to the world when i wasn't even sure myself has been very tricky to deal with.

My beloved Mistress Loola sent me a mail a while ago expressing her love for me but, also the unfortunate news that she will be away for sometime still with RL. I will not go to specifically into the exact details of it all. But, needless to say i was quite devastated to hear such bad news from my point of view.
But, as Mistress Loola always says, RL comes first and i am proud of her for taking the time to do what is needed for herself. Despite my sadness.

Even in her parting though, she still cares enough to plan for my care while she is away for an indefinite period. She found the time one evening, to chat with Mistress Rubbergirl, who has been so kind to me over the passing weeks, and, to put it simply, she has asked her to care for me as if i was her own pet for how ever long it may be until she returns.
Needless to say, that both myself and Mistress Rubbergirl were left flabbergasted, even if it is from very different points of view...

Mistress Loola is still intending to pop online very briefly at some point to express her wishes to me more personally and more clearly. As well as, presumably, giving Mistress Rubbergirl better access to me, by altering some of my permissions maybe.
I was at a loss for a while, wondering how to cope. Where to start? How to deal with everything and come to terms with what is going on.
Mistress Rubbergirl is fabulous and as Mistress Loola suggests, i can think of no one better to look after me. But, that made it no less shocking. Mistress Loola has moulded me into the well rounded pet i am today and to know i will not see her for such lengths that she needs to entrust my care to someone left me down for some days.
This is why my blog has faltered so much recently, as i am sure you can understand. I simply didn't know where to start as i waited for answers or tried to resolve my own feelings.

After much soul searching though, i came to realise that the only thing that truly matters to me is my Mistress and doing my best to please her and keep her happy. If she feels Mistress Rubbergirl is able to look after me, whilst she herself is unable to, then i will follow her decision. Who am i to doubt her?
I am and will always be, Mistress Loola's pet, and as soon as she does return to SL i will be back at her side quicker than you can blink. *grins*
Until then though, i am proud and honoured to have Mistress Rubbergirl as a Mistress. She is a fabulous friend, woman, Mistress and more. To be in her presence is always an honour and i am honoured that she has agreed to take care of me.

So....my days will be a little different now. The rubber room is still of course, one of my main hang outs and i still have a bed there. For which i am ever grateful! But, on top of this i now have the constant care and protection of Mistress Rubbergirl as she welcomes me into her family.
So much so, she has even been kind enough to put a bed for me in her playroom so that i also have a place to rest when i am at her abode. Below is a peek of it for your pleasure and as the days go on i hope to have more news on all the changes and more as things develop. Hopefully, things will work out nicely and as always i must thank most of all my beloved, Mistress Loola xx

The Future

It's been an interesting couple of days for me. There is a lot happening but, not all of i feel able to speak of right now. I had contact from my Mistress this week, but i am waiting to see her face to face to fully appreciate and understand the extent of everything.
I know that she cares for me no end, but that as with everyone sometimes, she has things going on far bigger than anything waiting for her in SL right now and i fully respect that.

What i do know for sure is that Mistress Loola will be away a while longer yet and the future may be a little different for me. How exactly, time will tell and i will tell you more as i can. My mind has been racing the last couple of days and it is a hard time to be a pet. The person i need most and that my whole world is centred around, is out of my reach and there is nothing i can do about it.

The saving grace as always is having people who care for me to make sure i am getting by ok. I saw Alistair last night, for the first time in a while. Although only briefly it made me feel comforted to know he is still around and asking after me.
On top of that, i spent a little time with Jessie, Miss Thina's kitten, as i have previously called her in this blog. Although things with have altered it seems into a more mutual, loving partnership. A little surprising to come back to after only about a week away, but as long as they are happy, that's the main thing.
I hope to see more of them again soon as it is always fun to bump into them in the rubber room. As it is with many of the regulars who know me there.

Mistress Rubbergirl has been taking care of me of course as well. She was looking stunning last night in a clear latex outfit which definitely caught my eye. *winks* But, i was surprised to return the other day to discover Mistress Rubbergirl has a new pet, Carly, whom, more surprisingly, has many similarities to myself. Apparently Mistress Rubbergirl made her new pet read my blog to help see if the pet's life was for her and to understand what it is all about. I blushed greatly at this it is a lovely compliment to me. I hope Carly enjoyed my words in some way and i hope she is able to find herself happiness within her new role, and be able to commit to it long term. I am sure she will try to do Mistress Rubbergirl proud.
I have noticed an increase in pets recently over the past few months. It may be just coincidence, although i could be bigheaded and claim some credit for it *flex*. I would never be so arrogant though hehe.


Anyway, i will vanish for now and give more info on my situation as soon as i can. I need to resolve it all as quickly as you may want to know *smiles*

Time

Time away, once again. RL calls and all goes on hold for a few days. But, the break may have been good in some ways to distract me a bi. I miss Mistress Loola so much that it was starting to take its toll on me. So a few day away may have been a good way to catch some breath.
But, as always i return to the place where i can be myself the most. Mistress Rubbergirl was happy to see me of course and i was even happier to take up my place in the rubber room once more. Upon my bed.

Today's post is just brief, to mark my return and show that i am still here. As the weekend progresses, hopefully i will have more to share and more to talk about. We'll see what the future holds.

Time Off

A lack of posts over the weekend. This is because a busy few days in RL gave me an enforced break for a bit, but, this may have been a good thing. It gave me some time away to relax and unwind from the worry of missing my Mistress so much.

Mistress Loola has been away for a while now and it is starting to effect my moods. This pet has definite withdrawal symptoms. Restless and lacklustre, it has been difficult recently. But, at the same time, i have faith that i will come through the other side of this period intact and strong as ever.
I know that my Mistress does care for me and that when able to she will be with me and as supportive as ever.

In the meantime, i will try and keep calm and focus on the kindness of my friends who will always be there to help me.