Friends

I have been saying thank you to people already today for their care and help in cheering me up when i have been feeling down. As well as just for being kind enough to put up with just having me around all the time in general.

A special thanks to Miss Thina whom, in response to all my talk of pictures the other day, was fantastic enough to send me the picture below.
It is a picture of myself (in red this time *winks*) getting to know her little kitten a bit better *grins*. The kitten is such a cute thing and i think she will do her Mistress proud. She seems, even in the short time i have known her, to improved her in sense of awareness and devotion.
Miss Thina is always very kind to me and as with Mistress Rubbergirl, it is an honour to be in her good books, so i hope to see more of her soon. She also has a pony now i believe *smiles*, so her stable is growing already.

While i am on the topic of friendship and support, i would be silly not to mention Alistair and Dess. Their love and friendship for my Mistress is vast like mine and so, whilst we are all sad to be apart from her, we share a mutual understanding and for that i am grateful. As they always check up on me when they can.

It has been a nice day so far and i am looking forward to seeing some of these friends later possibly, along with Mistress Rubbergirl. Hopefully, the weekend ahead will be a good one with some nice tales to tell. I feel as if my last couple of posts weren't like the usual me. Probably, because i have been feeling a bit down from missing my Mistress. Hence i have eneded up doing two today now as if to make up for it.

Maybe Mistress Loola will get some time over the weekend to find me for a little? That would have me buzzing once more! *smiles*

Silver lining

As you saw i had a down day yesterday. The lack of my Mistress is taking it's toll on me. Mistress Loola's absence does start to effect me after a while, as is obviously apparent. A pet without it's owner is a sad thing. The lost look in my eyes as i wander about being obvious to my friends who are all being so kind in their efforts to cheer me up.

That is where the silver lining comes in. *smiles* The people who know and care for are always doing their best to ensure i am feeling ok and to make me smile.
Among the crowd of course is Mistress Rubbergirl once more. Her kindness and care knows no bounds and i am always flattered that she thinks so highly of me.
She seems to treat me as if i was one of her own, despite the fact that i am not. I have met her dolls and kept her company. I have warmed her legs with my body as i sit and rest my head in her lap and she always seeks to do the best for me.

It is an honour to be so highly thought of and i am very happy that Mistress Loola asked her to keep an eye on me in her absence. I am of course longing for Mistress Loola and hope she comes back more regularly soon, but, in the meantime i am always happy to be with Mistress Rubbergirl and i hope to see more of her later.

She has learned of my passions over time and even teased me earlier by saying that she will be wearing her short dress later to show off her lovely legs that i am so fond of. It is both a pleasure and a pain to be sat so low down with such beautiful shapes filling my eyes, knowing that such pleasures are beyond the means of a pet like myself. But, i savour the fact that i get to sit so close to them and watch her closely as i smile inside my mask as my skin tingles with excitement.
I have a feeling that after building my heart rate with such a sight she will push me over the edge by blowing air into the intake valve of my mask and causing me to overload *grins*

I will be sure to let you know the outcome tomorrow *winks*

Tinged with sadness

A quiet couple of days for me. I have not lingered in the rubber room as much as i normally do. So much so that i have not seen Mistress Rubbergirl or many other of my friends, since my last entry.
I did see Dess for a while yesterday. She is looking more attractive than ever in gorgeous little combo she has taken to wearing. Plus, she was wearing the mask my Mistress tends to wear most recently. One of her own designs of course, and it makes me feel a sense of familiar warmth as i stare up at her eyes hiding behind that lovely rubber mould. But, at the same time. It just enhances the longing and sadness i feel for being apart from my Mistress for a while now.

I know she would only be away for so long with important matters. RL must take priority, so i hope she is doing ok and that everything will work out soon.
But, there are of course times when it hits me hard and today i am feeling downbeat from it all. I feel incomplete without Mistress Loola and lacking purpose. My Mistress provides my welfare and being. Without her i sometimes just feel...lack lustre i guess.
I usually cope quite well in her absence i feel. Making the effort to impress in her name and feeling happy just to socialise in her honour. But, it has been a while now without any extended time with her and i think it was going take its toll on me some form eventually.

I am not changing my plans or dreams. Do not worry. I would not seek to change any of my commitments to my Mistress or my chosen life. It's just an expression of my feelings today. That's what this blog is all about after all. I am a loving pet, an adoring companion to keep my Mistress company. So, it is only natural to miss my owner when she is away.

Modelling

Lots of pictures will fill my blog today. Mistress Rubbergirl was taking some pictures of her Latexdoll in one of the Rubber Room's little hide aways and she was kind enough to take some of me too, once she was done.
Once taken, the Mistress then topped off my excitement by sending me copies of the pictures so that i may have them, not just for myself, but of course, so that i may also use them in my blog and/or web album.


This was so thoughtful of Mistress Rubbergirl and i am thrilled with how the pictures look. Plus, on a more personal level i get a different sensation when i look at them as i am actually able to see myself and i tingle when i see how close i am to her, or how i look to the outside the world for once.
My sense of self is reduced by the fact that when living my daily life and looking around, my mask HUD and enforced mouselook prevents me from seeing my own image in any way. Making other people the centre of my attention and rightly so.
It ensures that i am less vain and self centred than some subs or pets may become at some point and keeps me thinking as my Mistress wishes.


So, when i see myself in a picture someone sends me, such as the one above, it is almost a shock to think of it as me. I feel excited and tingle with pride at the realisation that it is me looking so cute in the images i see.
It may sound odd, but when you go without seeing yourself for as long as i have it is a litte bizarre and overwhelming to get to grips with. Try not looking in any mirrors for a couple of months and you may begin to get somewhere near the feeling. *winks* I love it though, and wouldn't change it for the world. If anything, it just makes little things such as this all the more special to me. A picture paints a thousand words they say. In my case, that is most definitely true hehe.


Thank you Mistress Rubbergirl then, for being so kind to me as always. The picture above showing just how attentive she can be to me. I may sound like a broken record for repeating it over so many posts. But, i have to make clear how grateful i am for her care recently. She has been a fantastic guardian and i hope she realises how much that means to me.
On a lighter note though, below is a picture i am thrilled about as it finally allows me to show the lovely bed i have been given in the Rubber Room. My own spot to settle on and relax in comfort as i gaze around the room and listen in on all the goings on around me. Oh and it provides me with an excellent view of the stage as well to watch the dancers with *wink*


The rest of the day was quite fun, while i was around as i saw lots of people i knew. So many at one point that i couldn't keep up with them all. Seeing Miss Thina and her kitten always makes me smile as well as Lycra, Alistair, Princess Cookie and so many more. Despite the sadness that i feel from being apart from my Mistress for so long, i am happy that i have made so many friends who look out for me. I try to focus on them and the goings on around me to distract me from the lack of Mistress Loola's presence and i am thankful to know each and every one of them.

Oh and a special mention to Kate today as well. One of the rubber room's dancers and dj's. She was looking fabulous yesterday in a gorgeous long red dress. She promised to send me some kisses across the room, next time she is dancing on stage, so this is to make sure she doesn't forget *grins*
Plus, since i am on a photo theme, if any friends/readers take any nice pics you think i may like to use in my blog, i cannot receive them in SL, but, you can always email to me at loolaspet@gmail.com

Reputation?

A quiet day yesterday. But, then, i guess sundays can be that way. The rubber room had long sparse periods where either i would be the only person around or just with one or two other visitors.

During these quiet times, i tend to sit and reflect on things. My Mistress, of course, my friends and other people i have met over the last few days. The added bonus now of course is that i have a bed of my own to relax in while i ponder such things. I am still honoured and delighted with my latest treat and hope that my pleasure has not gone unnoticed.

I find myself feeling bashful and yet touched sometimes recently. My constant presence in the rubber room combined with my commitment seems to be gaining me a small reputation amongst some. I think, anyway. I am doing my best to overlook it and i do not wish to seem bigheaded. But, i find myself blushing constantly recently as there are times when i get a string of compliments from various sources in quick succession and i do my best to be modest and thankful at all times as i am very thankful of course to be noticed. Not to mention proud of course.
It is Mistress Loola though who i know that i have to thank for any and all praise i receive and any enhancement to my reputation that goes with it. She has helped to mould me into the loving pet that i have become and for that i am ever grateful.

Mistress Rubbergirl was of course, a highlight of my day as usual. I met one of her dolls for the the first time today. They seemed very sweet and i am sure that they serve the Mistress well. The dolly was kind enough to begin reading my blog and so that is one quick way to get into my good books of course *winks*
Later on in the evening as the day wore to a close and the people lessened around us, i shared some quiet time with Mistress Rubbergirl. I have tried to express to the Mistress how as time goes on in Mistress Loola's absence that i am more and more thankful for her affection as my fondness of her grows.

Mistress Loola is by far, without a doubt my reason for being and my only desire. But, Mistress Rubbergirl has, as she sweetly suggested recently, become the second most important person in my life and....i think she may well be right. *smiles*

Rubber Ladies

I am still trying to contain my excitement this morning as a i recover from a fabulous night in the rubber room. The main instigators in my pleasure last night is down to two rubber ladies.
Rubber Robonaught, the fabulous owner of the Rubber Room and of course Mistress Rubbergirl, my rubber clad guardian who only seems to improve in her understanding and manipulation of me.

I will start with Rubber Robonaught. She is always looking fabulous as you would expect for someone with such a name usually clad in gorgeous outfits that make my heart melt.
Anyway, Rubber always says hi to me and spots me trotting around the club. A long time ago, she joked that she should make me a little bed somewhere in room to be able to rest. On seeing her again the other night, she was amazed to realise how long i had been in the Rubber Room without going anywhere else and that i am basically resident here nowadays. This much is true, as Mistress Loola leaves me here whenever she is offline, so that i may mingle in a friendly environment.
So, last night you can imagine my pleasure when i logged in to discover a new addition to the room. Positioned neatly on a rug in front of the stage, surrounded by a row of seats is a lovely looking new pet basket. A bed placed there especially for me.

To be considered special enough and thought of in high enough regard for Rubber to take the time to put a bed down for me, I am completely overwhelmed. I am so grateful for her efforts and hope she realises how happy and excited this made me. After she told me about it, i trotted around the room looking for her, to nuzzle her in thanks and express my joy. But, the club was so busy last night that i could not pick her out. Unable to see her name and tell her apart i struggled to cope. So i ended up having to emote my thanks in general and hoping that she spotted it.
I will be sure to thank her more personally next time i have her one on one. In the meantime, maybe she will read this or someone who has will let her know how thankful i am. It is truly and honour and you are sure to find me in or near the bed from now on *grins*

The other star of the night was, as mentioned, my beloved Mistress Rubbergirl. I made a slight fool of myself at the start of the evening by expressing my disappointment at not having seen her the day before and feeling a little lost.
She had of course been busy with her own doll and was unable to catch me before i vanished for the night. I blushed at coming across as so petty and apologised for being silly. Mistress Rubbergirl of course has her own life to keep up with and looks out for me as a favour for my Mistress, a point which i should remember all the time.

But, having quickly moved on and settled happily in our usual spot, i was soon treated to something special. After having chatted with me and caught up on things the Mistress blew a long slow breath into the intake valve of my mask with a wry smile on her face. She has discovered some of my weaknesses over the last couple of weeks and i am sure my Mistress Loola would not begrudge me some small pleasure in her absence.
My head swam as i was intoxicated by her breath filling my mask. My body tingled and I inhaled deeply, trying to savour the taste as i felt my body tremble with pleasure.
Having exhaled and gazed up in thanks as i sat there tingling, i was suddenly given another breath before i had time to recover. Overwhelmed at this second burst of pleasure, i trembled and flinched as i inhaled again. My mask filled with her sweet air as i took it all in. Holding the breath and trembling as my heart raced and my body started to get by hotter.
As i looked up at the Mistress and exhaled with a slow breath, my head swimming, body tingling and fighting to keep my composure.
Two such breaths in a row is a very rare treat and i hardly believed my luck, before something else happened. Mistress Rubbergirl, grinning happily at my current state then proceeded to blow a series of short sharp breaths into my mask. In a constant effort to tease me further.

I am getting myself all excited now just thinking about it as i type these words. I think it says so much about the manner of my restrictions and confinement that I am so easily pleased. Without any physical contact i can be brought to the brink of ecstasy as my body craves the intimacy that is so often unobtainable.
For this very reason I adore my Mistress. Mistress Loola has shaped me into a loving rubber pet who will not only bend to her every whim but is also filled with a sense of pent up passion and energy for the slightest moment of pleasure.
Mistress Rubbergirl has earned a place in my heart over the last couple of weeks from her commitment and care to my life. So, having her treat me in such a way is why i got so excited from such a small thing. Her breath was intoxicating and i am simply thrilled that she was able to thrill me in such a way. Seriously, I got a little carried away *grins*

But, as always, in the bigger picture it is all down to Mistress Loola. Her rules and restrictions, combined with the manner in which she has shaped and cared for me are all part of the reason I can be teased in such a seemingly simple way.
I hope my Mistress will not mind my moment of pleasure. I am always mindful of her feelings and never wish to do anything she would not approve of. But, at the same time, i am sure that Mistress Rubbergirl is the safest person to be with in the mean time and i know that my Mistress only wants me to happy as much as i want the same for her. Especially in her absence.

So, it was the night of rubber ladies. What more can say. Rubber makes the heart grow fonder *winks*

Downtime

A very brief post today by my normal standards. (Yes you can rest easy, i won't wear you out today^^) This is mainly because i was not online too much yesterday, so there is little to share for once.

The most important thing to mention though is that i did get to speak with my Mistress for a short period. Although, it was so brief i did not actually get to see her in person, which is a little saddening. She assured me though that she is thinking of me and that hopefully time will be more on our side soon as she hopes to be more present soon.
It goes without saying that this prospect has me tingling at the very thought. I cannot wait to be with her more regularly again. Everyone is being so kind to me in Mistress Loola's absence, but i will only be complete when she is with me once more.

The remainder of my time yesterday was spent sitting in the rubber room greeting people and passing the time as usual. Miss Thina's kitten was with me for a while. She always seems happy to see me and is also testing her abilities it seems. She was only using emotes yesterday like myself and on top of this she has been given a name changer by her Mistress, so that she is represent in chat as being 'Thina's Little Kitten'.
It makes me smile to see her developing and to see that her Mistress is slowly moulding her into the perfect pet she obviously hopes to achieve. I really look forward to seeing more of their development together and i will be keeping my eyes in Miss Thina's blog in the hope for more interesting stories of the two of them.

Oh and before i go, a quick mention of a gorgeous looking blue rubber doll i played with called Apollo. She looks so delectable in her tight outfit and i must give compliments to her Mistress. Even though i did help get her into trouble.
The dolly enjoyed me nuzzling her so much that she got a bit carried away and as a result was given some electric shocks by her Mistress. Hopefully she did not mind too much though. I wonder what trouble i can get her into next time? hehe

Roll on the weekend and more fun times ahead i am sure *winks*

Uplifted

Well, 24 hours is a long time as a pet. Long enough for my mood to brighten and to have experienced a pleasant evening to help me through some of the melancholy that i felt a little earlier.
Some people picked up on the sightly sadder tone than usual in my last blog post. I was merely trying to express how difficult this life can be occasionally. It is not always sunshine and rainbows. But then, what is? I have hopes and expectations like everyone, but patience is a virtue as they always say and I am still content, still proud to be the way i am. More importantly, still adoring of my Mistress and looking forward to seeing her again.

Mistress Rubbergirl, whom, ensured with my care when ever my Mistress is away, was very supportive last night. She took the time to reassure me of the love that both my Mistress and she feel for me. Holding my head and looking into my eyes as she spoke to me, expressing her understanding of my role. The way i live and devote myself to Mistress Loola and how tricky that can be.


Resting my head on her knee and taking in her support as i listened carefully, was very uplifting and i thank her for the time she puts into looking out for me. Even though i am not her property. She seems honoured that Mistress Loola asked her to watch over me and takes that responsibility very seriously. So i always ensure i give her my full attention, trying my best to please her, as i am sure my Mistress would want me to.
When Mistress Loola is away i am her representative in the rubber room. I carry her name over me at all times, so i always aim to be the best pet anyone has ever seen. To make people envious of her. It's a fun game for me to play. *winks*
But, i must thank of course Mistress Loola for being aware of the needs of this pet and having the forethought to ask Mistress Rubbergirl to keep her eye on me. It is another hint towards my Mistress awareness and care. I am a very affectionate pet, who despite my inability to chat to people in a 'normal' manner, does love company and affection. Like most animals do. So i am grateful for her actions. Even from afar.

As the evening rolled on more and more people seemed to appear and join what seems to be becoming 'our' sofa. *smiles* Lycra, Alistair, Viktoria and more joined us to relax and chat. I sit there, happily nuzzling people's boots and listening in on the conversation. I have noticed Mistress Rubbergirl always seems to end up surrounded by lots of people where ever we sit. Maybe she is just very popular, i am not sure. But, it's always a busy and fun time to try and follow.


Viktoria being there last night reminded me of a conversation i had with my Mistress the other day. Mistress Loola pointed out how interesting it was from reading my blog that my view of things shows how it is the 'little' things that matter to a pet.

[2010/05/18 14:01] Loola Lassally: V.I.P.s are not worth a mention, but seemless small things mean alot

This is because when i first met Lady Viktoria, i had no idea who she is. I have no idea who anyone is after all. So, i cannot prejudge people, or be affected by reputation as that stuff is meaningless to me. I can only respond and base my feelings on people by their actions or words. Nothing more.
Lady Viktoria approached me to ask how or where i got my hair the style it is. In a rubbery texture. I did my best to answer her and treated her like any other person. Which, afterwards, Mistress Loola found quite amusing. The fact that supposedly people are normally fawning over her and making a big thing of her presence. Due to the popular boots that she designs.

I was slightly taken aback when Mistress Loola explained this point to me, but i understood the effect that was expressing. I am shaped by my Mistress to see things in a different way and to explore the world as a pet. With her as the centre of all things. If this means that everyone else drifts into the crowd then so be it. As long as i know where my Mistress is, i will be fine *winks*

Every Positive has a Negative

An odd feeling fills me today. Anyone who knows me or has read enough of my blog will know that i don't mention too many negative things. Usually because i am lucky enough to not have many of them. I lead a very privileged existence and i know it. I am a very lucky pet, to lead such a blessed life under the rule of one of the finest Mistress' i could ever imagine.

Last night was one i had looked forward to as my Mistress had told me before hand that she should be online. Which with her busy schedule recently is a major cause for excitement.
I was thrilled to see my Mistress and that is an understatement. It is not easy to put into my words that happiness i feel being alongside her. Even for a short while. She is quite simply everything i need.
But, my Mistress is also an extremely popular figure and rightly so *smiles*. She makes the finest masks and is generally respected for her fine personality. Not to mention the fact that having trained and surrounded herself with some amazing dolls and a certain pet, Mistress Loola catches people's attention where ever she goes. I guess having a bright pink pet chasing round after you does tend to catch ones eye hehe

Anyway. This means that when Mistress Loola does reappear in busy areas such as the rubber room after a prolonged break, she is in high demand. I understand this of course. If anything it makes me proud to have such a well known respected owner and i do not begrudge her anything.
But, i also know how hectic she has it and how many things/people she has to deal with. My Mistress mentioned to me at one point last night that her delay in responding was because she had 12 IM conversations going on with various people.
This makes it hard for a creature like me. I am so happy to see my Mistress and i am keen (like everyone else who is probably speaking with her) to catch up, to chat, to just be with her. But, after having waited and stuck to my role, I have to sit quietly and patiently while the world catches up with her.
This is not a complaint about my Mistress. I love Mistress Loola so much and she always makes sure i am looked after. It is more just a statement on how hard it can be to live this life.

This blog after all is about a pets life and this is one of things that this pet is having to deal with. Most of the other people who catch up with my Mistress and hurry to chat after a gap in communication, are i am sure able to have done other things in the mean time. To have chatted to people, traveled and more. They have been able to fill the loss of my Mistress with other occupations and hobbies until such time as they can chat to her again.
For me....I cannot teleport, or chat, use notecards, inventory, or see the world from a bigger picture. My world is my Mistress. So when my Mistress is away, it is as if i have lost the world, i have lost my main focus and my ability to share so many things with the ONLY person who can truly understand me.
But...as a good pet should. I sit, i rest my head on Mistress lap and watch and listen as the world revolves around her and i wait for the good times to come. The times alone. The times when all those voices in the ether will fade for just long enough for us to be able to enjoy the calm for a moment more.

So don't think this life is easy. It is harder than you know and yet....I keep my head high and carry on with my path. Through loyalty, love and devotion. Mistress Loola deserves all of this of this from me and more. How could i not put up with tough moments like this for someone so special?

Time Flies

Yesterday continued the fun time i have been having recently. There are sometimes quiet parts of the day when i am in the rubber room. The periods of the day when there are no parties and things going on can be more difficult as i roam the room, sometimes alone, hoping for people to turn up that i can pester with my attention *smiles*
But, I saw Miss Thina and her kitten today. It is always good to see people who respect me and Miss Thina seems most kind. She has even been kind enough to mention me in her own blog as i seem to made an impression on her. So, hello Miss Thina if you are reading *winks*
I am honoured of course, to be allowed to sit along side her own kitten sometimes. I do not wish to interfere with their time together in anyway. I know more than anyone how important that time is. So i hope they will never be afraid to tell me if they need time alone. Because other wise i may just nuzzle them to death with my affection hehe

Mistress Rubbergirl is even more special. She has informed me how much she cares for me and that even though i am not hers and she is merely a guardian as it were that i have earned a place in her heart. Through the efforts and devotion i display both to my own Mistress and herself.
I feel very peaceful when i sit alongside Mistress Rubbergirl. The security and support that her presence gives me is such an amazing thing and i am grateful for her efforts to look after me when Mistress Loola is away.
At the same time though, in a similar note to my thoughts on Mistress Thina, i am always aware that i am not hers and that she has dolls of her own to look after.
Hopefully i am not interfering with their time and needs. I am not always sure when they are around, or how much time they get with her when they are. I do not want to get in anyone's way and i hope that the Mistress will still be able to fill her own needs and that of her subs. I am sure if they ever need her i can find ways to make the time pass.
Dont get me wrong. As i said before i love to be with her all the time. I just want to be sure i am mindful of my place and i also do not wish to upset anyone else from occupying so much of her time.

But, of course, at the end of the day i am probably being silly. Mistress Rubbergirl is the one in charge of her dolls and her time. I am sure, she wll do what ever she sees fit and make sure that things are she wants them.
I should not think on such issues. It is far too much for a pet to be concerned with. Maybe i will just focus on nuzzling her boots and be happy. After all, that's all i really need *winks*

Security

Today the highlight of the day was simple....Mistress Loola came online to see me for the first time in days. She has been kept at bay a lot recently through RL. It is one of those things, i know. I would be lying if i said i did not miss my Mistress every day she is not around. I do. I ache for her constantly. She is my reason for being.

But, RL comes first. We all know this, so what type of pet would i be, let a lone person, if i could not cope for a bit without my Mistress while she is away. Pets are devoted and loving creatures who adore and serve without question.

We are loyal and constant. If you have a pet dog in real life, it does not stop loving you when you are away for work or holiday. It may miss you of course, but once back together it will be as devoted as always no matter the gap.

That is how i should be for my Mistress. I am her pet. Her loving creature. Her absence will not write that off. Too many people/subs in SL expect things how they want them all the time. A constant and rewarding way of life. Which, i can understand to an extent. It is not 'real' in the truest sense of the word. But, then what is real? My love for my Mistress is as real as anything, so that means it is worthy of the same standards it would receive in RL. Through thick and thin.

I know that is the best way for me and for any true, loving pet. In the long run, it will serve me well too. Commitment brings it rewards in time and i know that my Mistress will be appreciative of my devotion and that when she has the time and chance to reward me. I will have my moments of pleasure. Not that i desire anything. Simply her presence is enough to keep me happy.

Anyway, Mistress Loola popped on to see how i was doing. Unfortunately, she was not able to stay long, but, even 5mins with my Mistress is enough to keep me going for sometime. It is enough time for her to let me know she cares and looks out for me. Which is most important.

Plus, as we spoke, it turns out Mistress was playing with my outfit.

Mistress changed my colour from red to pink. Maybe she just felt i needed a change or she wanted me stand out for some reason. I have no idea. But, i am always thrilled that she can so easily alter my look. The mods she has put on all my items means she can alter my colour scheme at any time without changing my clothes which i think is quite clever. Another reason to be proud of my wonderful Mistress.

Any regular readers will know that Mistress Rubbergirl Lionheart has been looking out for me over the past week or so. A friend of my Mistress and myself, she has been kind enough to watch over me and keep me company when ever she has been around. Something for which i am very grateful.

Since Mistress will still be busy for a few more days she has asked Mistress Rubbergirl to continue to watch over me. The prospect of which is both flattering and enjoyable.

The fact that my Mistress cares enough for me to ensure i am not completely alone in her absence, shows how much she cares for my feelings and that is another plus for me.

On top of that Mistress Rubbergirl has been a fantastic friend recently and i am very happy in her company. I feel safe near her and know that she will look out for me.

In fact she told me that she promised Mistress Loola she would look after me as if i was one of her own dolls. Which is why i am so flattered. I think i have made a good impression on Mistress Rubbergirl. She seems to appreciate my endeavours greatly and respects completely my devotion.

I know that she has read all of my blog from beginning to end and that she is aware therefore of all my restrictions and feelings. So, i feel safe and comforted knowing that she has taken such a thorough interest in me and i am also happy to know that my blog seems good enough to hold people's attention. It can be hard to judge as the writer, so i am grateful for any feedback.

On a side note, Mistress Rubbergirl appeared in a different outfit for the latter part of the evening and i have to say, it caught my eye. *winks* Of course, she always looks lovely in her catsuits, but, this little dress shows off her legs and i couldn't help but be enticed by them.

I am drawn to nice boots and legs anyway. I always have been. But, being on the floor all the time as a pet means the part of people i see the most is their legs. So i cannot help but notice when someone shows them off in such a way. Hopefully Mistress Rubbergirl won't mind me discussing her legs with the world. If anything i think she can proud of them hehe.

So, with my guardian to watch over me i will count the minutes until i see my Mistress again. Hopefully that could be tuesday according to my Mistress. So i will cross my paws in hope.

Because as much love and attention i may get from people (and it is all fantastic btw) the thing that i would give it all up for, is the chance to spend more time with my Mistress.

I am not complete without her. There is always a gap left in me when she logs out and i cannot wait for it be filled again. But, until then i will keep up my good endeavours and ensure that i carry her name with pride. *smiles*

Ladies

Sometimes you have days where nothing really happens and yet, it feels like the day has been full. Fun and action packed.

Yesterday was one of those days. As is usual i am mingling in the rubber room where Mistress Loola left me as i have no option to go anywhere else. But, as the time passes over the course of a week, i become more recognisable to the regulars and people who have been present over that time.

It gets more and more difficult to keep up with all the greetings and friendly comments i receive. Don't get me wrong, it is a great feeling to be so well received. I am honoured that so many people take the time to meet me or give me a mention. But, it can just be a lot to take in. I am memorising some people from appearance and gradually learning names as i catch people talking to each other. But there are some people who have petted me more than once this week and i still have no idea of their name who they are.

But, that of course is the life of a pet.

The humans around me do not think the same way or understand how i see the world. So how can i expect them to introduce themselves. There is no need. I know my place, i know what is expected of me. My Mistress gave me these challenges to deal with on a daily basis as that is her want. That is the standard she wants me to be able to deal with and i am fairly hopeful that (so far) i have been able to keep with her wishes. It is not easy, but then where would the fun be if it was?

Mistress Rubbergirl Lionheart (above) has already been mentioned in my blog this week as she has been keeping me company quite often. It is nice to be appreciated by people and when ever she comes to the rubber room i am always quick to go and meet her as I know she will be pleased to see me.

I did smile to myself today as she normally appears with a corset over her catsuit and yet, today she was wearing a body harness which looked quite like the one i am strapped into. Maybe mine looked so good that she wanted one too hehe *winks*

Before i go completely off on a tangent i should say that the evening was quite pleasant though. Mistress Rubbergirl and several other Mistress' reclined on the sofas together, chatting and greeting people.

I sat happily on the floor amidst them all, as i listened in on their chat, allowing myself to be petted. Nuzzling people's boots and trying to be adorable as ever *smiles*

Mistress Thina is another of the Mistress' who was sat around me. She has also been kind enough to pet me a few times this week and is always complimentary. She has a cute little kitty of her own, who sat next to me on the floor.

We nuzzled against each other sat there obediently, watching the ladies and playing together. She is a very pretty little thing in pink and i hope she will do Miss Thina proud as the Mistress seems most thoughtful and i think she should have someone deserving to serve her.

The kitty has only been in Mistress Thina's ownership for a about a week, so they are in that honeymoon period that flies by so fast. *smiles* But, the Mistress seems very nice and i wish them a long and healthy relationship together.

It is a warming thought to think i have been in the service of my Mistress for several months now. My devotion is as strong as ever. In fact, i think my adoration for my Mistress is actually stronger and growing all the time.

The manner in which i am kept makes me so reliant and centred around my Mistress that with each passing day i love her more and more. Even if i do not see her that day. Her presence in my daily life is lasting, through her rules and restrictions. I am my Mistress pet, make no mistake. It is all anyone could ask for. Well, all that anyone with a severe rubber fetish and a very submissive streak could ask for anyway *winks*

Mingling

A pleasant day in the rubber room today. I may not have been lucky enough to see my Mistress today, but i still managed to have fun as always. Sitting with my friends and meeting new faces as well.

My friend Alistair was able to catch up with me today. We have not seen much of each other over the last couple of weeks, but, it is always a pleasure so to see him. Although he looked a little different today. He was using a new, more muscle bound shape and he seems to be deciding on what is the best look for him currently.

It was quite funny, sitting there and inspecting him as he asked my opinion and then began scurrying through his inventory to find his other shape and skin to compare it with.

I am probably not the best judge for these things. My view point not being the best for one thing, but he always looks good of course. (although i promised him i would say that^^) I am sure even if he does alter his image it will still look magnificent hehe.

It was a of friends in general as i also got to spend more time with Rubbergirl Lionheart today, who, of course, has been so kind to me over the past few days. The Mistress was in good spirits today and showed me her kindness as always.

She seemed delighted with the fact that she had earned a big mention in my blog the previous day and hope she gets used to it, as at the moment i seem to see her at least once a day *winks*

I must confess Mistress Lionheart has discovered one of my favourite treats over the last couple of days. Which is that on occasions she will lift my head up and exhale into the intake valve of my gas mask. Previously the only person who has ever done this to me is my beloved Mistress Loola herself.

It is a thrilling treat and something which really turns me on. But, i hope and think my Mistress will not mind me having such a moment every now and again. At least not from a friend. It is nice to get a little treat or reward for your devotion sometimes and i think Mistress Lionheart just appreciates the effort i put in for my Mistress.

The feeling of exhilaration i get when someone i care for breathes into my mask in this manner is intoxicating. It is as if i can taste them in the air. I love to close my eyes and breath in at that moment as i savour the closeness that moment brings me with that person. Since my real face is hidden away and my skin is rarely touched. These moments bring me closer to someone than you can possibly imagine. I know that i reusing their own air, the very breath that has just filled their lungs and i can literally smell them as their scent fills my mask and i almost feel like i a drifting away, as everything else fades away from me.

If this is how i feel when someone like Mistress Lionheart does this to me, i wonder if you can imagine how i react when my Mistress does this to me? I am not sure i can even put it into words..

It is lots of fun basically, as i wander around the club and mingle with people. I met a plethora of pets today too. I am sure there was a time when i would spend days being the only proper pet of any sort to be seen here. But, last night i nuzzled and sat with two others. Princess Cookie i have met before and the other a cute rubber puppy. It was quite a sight for others i am sure as the 3 of us sat there nuzzling and emoting to each other. 3 rubber pets all looking nice and shiny in their attire, as well as devoted in their actions. I am sure we will see more of each other in the future.

But, it is also a little overwhelming sometimes. At one point yesterday i logged into to find the rubber room quite busy and active, which is of course a great thing. However, as a regular visitor i was greeted by many voices and questions and i couldn't keep up with what was going on at all for a few mins.

People were asking me questions about my Mistress as well as myself. Some one even beckoned me to come closer to them amid the chat and i had no idea who it was or where they were in the room. I began to feel a little embarrassed as well as worrying that i may appear rude if i did not comply. People do not always realise of course that i see no names and only have mouse look enabled. All humans look and sound the same to me, i have to remember my friends through my memory of their physical appearance more than anything else. So, there are moments such as this where i can on occasion get stuck.

I do my best to emote my confusion. Making a show of looking around and perking up my ears to see who is calling me. Trying over time to explain my difficulties and although it usually works out ok, it can be difficult.

So don't think it's all fun and games, even mingling can be tricky ;)

Pet Play

It was a wonderful night last night. As far as this pet was concerned anyway. This pet felt much love and affection last night. Both from my Mistress and from friends who look out and care for me.

Rubbergirl Lionheart is a Mistress who has been friends with my Mistress and I for sometime. I believe actually i met her a while before i ever became the property of Mistress Loola and yet, during my time as a pet i have always seen her around. Often in conversation with my Mistress or just hanging out in the rubber room as she mingles with her group of latex loving friends. *smiles*

Mistress Lionheart was reclining on the sofa last night and called me over as a entered the rubber room, to greet and pet me. I am always so grateful to be given any form of affection. The slightest recognition is always a great reward when you are as restricted as i am. So, i was happy to see a caring face and show my appreciation.

I sat with Mistress Lionheart for a large part of the evening, resting my head on her legs as she sat on the sofa and tickled behind my ears. I love to show my obedience and devotion to people who treat me with love and respect. I am a caring pet after all, like any loyal animal.

I also saw Erica last night. She appeared to greet me and stroke my hair, asking how i have been. It has been so long since i have been Erica. We were such close friends for a while. Our paths have kept us further apart recently and she looks completely different to how i remember her, but, i am sure she knows that i still care. Being so locked down requires a great deal of understanding from my friends i guess. Especially for those that knew me before i was a pet as they have lost my random babbling chat (although maybe that's a good thing^^) and can only communicate with me when they are in the same location. But, i am fortunate that most people respect and understand my choices as well as my desires and love for my Mistress. To still have such friends in my position is a true gift, so i am always sure to nuzzle their legs extra hard. Just to show my appreciation. *grins*

Just when i was thinking how great the night had been, Mistress Loola appeared in the dead of night to make my fun complete.

I was so excited to hear my Mistress arriving in the rubber room that as i ran to meet her i went completely the wrong way, blinded from a clear view by my mask as i took a full circuit of the room, before settling happily before her.

After catching up with me and greeting other friends, Mistress was fantastic enough to take me out for a little 'training run' as she called it.

She summoned me to a location i have never seen before where i was confronted with a glass maze. It looked a little daunting at first as Mistress prepared to open the door to send me in. My task to get through as quickly as possible of course and show just what a good pet i can be.

In fact i surprised even myself as i scrambles through the maze as quickly as i could. I am not sure exactly of the time i achieved. I am sure it was under a minute. Mistress seemed impressed with my speed at least which was all i cared about. She even complimented how well i was adapting to my mask HUD. I see the world a little differently to everyone else after all. Locked in mouse look with too small ovals to look through, i cannot see the maze from a wide angle. I am of course, literally hunting my way through it. But, i feel i am pretty used to my HUD now. It is what i live with every day and such it no longer seems an issue. It is just how i am and how i should be. It helps to enforce my position and my submission to my Mistress. So how could i do anything but enjoy it. *winks*

The night ended not too long after these escapades. My Mistress had some queries to deal with. In fact, she had to deal with queries from people pestering her with desires to be a pet like me. It seems that as i go about my daily life, even without my Mistress, i gain attention and even envy from some people.

There are many people who seek a good Mistress and supposedly the desire to be a rubber pet or doll. But, so many people go about these things the wrong way. Just approaching people out the blue expecting to be wanted. Plus, on top of that, being a pet is not a simple and easy life. It may seem perfect to some and indeed with the right efforts it is very rewarding. But, it is not easy. It takes effort and commitment. Not just for a little while, but 24/7. I would hope this blog goes some way to help people understand the trials and tribulations of life as a pet. That is sort of the purpose i guess. Maybe my recount is too glowing a report? I could be harsher i guess with some of the more difficult moments. But, it is difficult to write any other way for me as i love my position and my role so much and my Mistress even more. So, i guess i will carry on the same way. But at least i am happy :)

Time and time again

Oh how the time flies...if only there were more hours in the day. Or more time to myself, or, of course, if only SL were RL. Then there would be no stress, no worries and no gaps in my fulfilment.

The time that builds some days recently between my Mistress and i seeing each other has unfortunately grown a bit. As RL weighs heavy on all us from time to time and we are no different i am afraid. Hence, such a gap between this post and my last.

But, as always, this is no reflection on my Mistress qualities and has no impact on my devotion to her. I am as committed and beloved as ever. She is still my reason for being and still my only true care.

Seeing her last night for the first time in about a week filled my heart with warmth and reminds me where i feel at home.

My Mistress was actually quite busy, chatting to some friends as she tried to help answer some scripting queries. Mistress Loola is quite clever after all *winks*

So, generally, i sat beside her in that loving way i do. My gaze fixed firmly upon my Mistress. With only her filling up the view from my mask as i breath and savour being so close to her once again. Being able to whisper her occasionally to talk in private. She is, after all, the only person who can IM me. I am hers alone to communicate with freely. So being at her side, able to chat when needed fills me with pride and happiness. My Mistress is the only one who can truly know me and for that i am forever thankful.

Hopefully, we will see each other more soon. As things will always even themselves out in time.

Until then, i am now in the rubber room. Free to mingle with friends and observe strangers from my lowly position.

It is a good life really. Even during times i do not see Mistress often. Because, people are always impressed and envious of my appearance, restrictions and obedience and it is Mistress Loola's love and care for me that makes all those feelings and opinions of me possible. So, even in her absence, her presence is always in effect. *smiles*