*poke* Ventured into the world for the first time in a long time this morning. Yes, i am still alive. Am i returning for good? Who knows. My recent track record has been poor. RL and SL do not mesh for me over recent times. But it doesn't mean that certain people aren't on my mind....

Little pleasures :)

What a week! I have returned and found myself loving being back. It has been odd as well, trying to get back into the swing of it all. Remembering how to deal with all my restrictions for one thing and the communication issues i face as a pet. Tricky to handle at the best of times, but after such a gap it's even harder.

I have had brief moments of the thing i crave the most and that is more time reuniting with Mistress Rubbergirl. Our times have been a bit off, so we have shared brief minutes together reconnecting and catching up. I think there is some uncertainty in the air occasionally from either side as we try to pick up where we left off. But the feelings are still there and that is the most important thing. Everything else can be regained.

I have some concerns for my Mistress, she seems to have some troubles on her mind and i gather that not everything has been good in my absence. I don't know all the details, but i hope she will take my presence as some solace and that i can make her happier now. It's the least i can do. Surely that's the whole reason for keeping a pet? We make people happy by our very presence! :P

My return thus far has mainly been confined to Mistress Rubbergirl's house, so i am still looking forward to seeing more of the world again and catching up with old friends.
With that in mind, Mistress took me out for a little run around today for the first time in a long time! I got to stretch my legs and run around MD for a little while before being taken to explore our old haunt the rubber room.
It has changed immensely and i cannot wait to see it full of people later on as it was empty at the time. Luckily i have been left there for now by my Mistress so i may explore a little more in my own time. In fact, i think i'll go do that right now! See you in there ;) xx

The best laid plans..

Where did the time go? How did this ever happen to me? I really have no idea. Well i do, but talking about such depressing and time consuming things is really not a good way for me to get started again.

Basically, i have missed EVERYTHING. I have missed being online, i have missed SL and most importantly i have missed Mistress Rubbergirl and everything she means to me.

I had a short absence once before, as you can see by looking at the dates of all my previous posts. From being a regular blogger, i have become nothing. A memory of things that once were, but have been lost to the sands of time.
Things move quickly in SL, this i know, and in the time i have been gone the people i knew could be married, dead, living in another version of reality, the possibilities are endless....

But, here i am. Having become as way laid by life as my original owner Mistress Loola. And how i understand the pain that can bring to the people you leave behind.
Mistress Rubbergirl has been nothing but kind to me and yet, after everything i leave her mystified and lost as to where i have been. Just as i felt a year or so ago. It's strange how things move in circles whether we want them to or not. It seems to happen all the time.
But oh i hope i can make amends.
Oh how i hope i can reagin my place and restore my reputation. Oh i hope i can win back my place in my Mistress' heart!

Having finally got myself completely locked into the control of Mistress Rubbergirl i have never been able to be stable in my home since, but it is not for anything other than rl and troubles along the way.
The person i most want to be with is here in sl, covered in rubber and decked in thigh high boots. She looks stunning every time i look up at her and the thought of being before her once more to rest my head in her lap as she sits in the rubber room, fills my heart with joy.
A joy which may be within reach, because as i log into sl for the first time in a long time, i look around the room in her home i last departed from and there in the corner, my bed still waits for me...

It's good to be home xxx

Breaking News...

Two words = Coming Back :)

Useless

Finally a post......It seems that the more i try to return & devote my time to where my heart belongs. Here in SL. The more i am torn away.
After the delights of a brief return in August, it became impossible to keep things up as i used to. My heart & soul lie in being the pet i have always been, and yet, the times when i used to spend many days & hours revelling in that role have long gone.
RL tears me away more & more, just as it did with my beloved Mistress Loola. Even though i know RL comes first & that i must do what i have to. It makes it no easier to take & miss my home here in SL.

The worst element of course, is knowing how much i let down those that need & care for me.

Mistress Rubbergirl has been magnificent over the whole course of this year, but every time i hope to impress her & settle by her side, the dreams are scuppered and as such i let her down again.

Apologies Mistress for being such an absent pet, and apologies to anyone who wanders where i am, or what i am up to.

I still think on you all & hope to see you again, but, maybe my times are changing? Maybe, i will have to alter my expectations or commitments in someway, so as not to disappoint myself & or my Mistress, by pledging more than i can deliver in this difficult time of transition.
Who knows? Not i right now, that's for sure.

Thinking of you all xx

Control & Ownership

Such a good day was had on Monday. I got to spend a long time in the company of my Mistress and how she has been to me.

Mistress Rubbergirl has been kind enough to take the time with me to sort out my cuffs, collar, locks, mask etc. as they were all still locked by Mistress Loola. This was because it was always intended after Mistress Loola's departure that she would hop online at some point to pass any keys over etc over to Mistress Rubbergirl and grant her full control over me.
Unfortunately, Mistress Loola has been laden more heavily with RL than hoped and as such, this never happened. It was not enough to stop my loyalty and servitude to Mistress Rubbergirl however as even locked securely away inside my suit i was still able to grant her my affection and love and i was always happy with the rewards i was given.

Over the course of time though this has obviously been something of a niggling issue and in order to be able to truly feel secure in my place and to prove my loyalty and devotion to Mistress Rubbergirl, it is only right to get my locks and ownership in order. For her happiness and for mine too.

So...it took a while, but, after much fiddling and relogging, i am now happily under the lock and key of Mistress Rubbergirl and it is a wonderful feeling.
To know that i have such a good owner and to realise how lucky i am to be under her watchful eye. Mistress Rubbergirl has always been there for me, at every turn and i will do my utmost to please her. She is now the centre of everything and i am always happy to be by her side. It is good to know where i belong and what is expected of me and so my devotion to my Mistress will no no bounds as i aim to do my best by her.

Here is to the coming weeks and the fun that hopefully lies ahead. xx

Coming Home

Hey everyone!

It has been so long since my last post. I know, i am sorry. It has been a pretty busy and torrid time for me this summer and my SL has been put on hold whilst my RL took priority for a while.
But, as all good natured people will tell you, RL comes first. So, when needs must, we do what we must to get by,

It has not been easy to be away from all my friends and of course, most importantly, my dear Mistress Rubbergirl. Just as we were beginning to form our new relationship, with her as my new owner, we have been parted in the most cruel way.
However, the kindness and understanding that Mistress Rubbergirl has for me knows no bounds. She has always been supportive of my needs and the time i need to keep things in order.
My role as a pet though and the need to please and be close to my owner always makes it so hard to be away for any length of time. So i was elated to finally be able to see her again. The pic below, being a fine example of our joyful reunion...


I cannot wait to make up once more for the time i have lost. I know that i have a lot to do to get myself up to speed. Time moves so quickly in SL, with relationships, friends, roles and places, changing and evolving so fast.
It will be interesting to see all the things i have missed over time.

I look forward to catching up with all my friends again and i hope you will all bear with me as i do my best to continue with my blog as normal.
Hopefully, some people out there will still be interested in what i have to say. xx

Changes

Such a big couple of weeks in terms of changes and relationships. I have struggled to blog the last few days even when i have been able to be online, as i have found myself struggling to work out exactly where my role lies recently and what the future holds for me. Being able to be clear and honest about things in my blog is very important to me, so being unsure how to explain things to the world when i wasn't even sure myself has been very tricky to deal with.

My beloved Mistress Loola sent me a mail a while ago expressing her love for me but, also the unfortunate news that she will be away for sometime still with RL. I will not go to specifically into the exact details of it all. But, needless to say i was quite devastated to hear such bad news from my point of view.
But, as Mistress Loola always says, RL comes first and i am proud of her for taking the time to do what is needed for herself. Despite my sadness.

Even in her parting though, she still cares enough to plan for my care while she is away for an indefinite period. She found the time one evening, to chat with Mistress Rubbergirl, who has been so kind to me over the passing weeks, and, to put it simply, she has asked her to care for me as if i was her own pet for how ever long it may be until she returns.
Needless to say, that both myself and Mistress Rubbergirl were left flabbergasted, even if it is from very different points of view...

Mistress Loola is still intending to pop online very briefly at some point to express her wishes to me more personally and more clearly. As well as, presumably, giving Mistress Rubbergirl better access to me, by altering some of my permissions maybe.
I was at a loss for a while, wondering how to cope. Where to start? How to deal with everything and come to terms with what is going on.
Mistress Rubbergirl is fabulous and as Mistress Loola suggests, i can think of no one better to look after me. But, that made it no less shocking. Mistress Loola has moulded me into the well rounded pet i am today and to know i will not see her for such lengths that she needs to entrust my care to someone left me down for some days.
This is why my blog has faltered so much recently, as i am sure you can understand. I simply didn't know where to start as i waited for answers or tried to resolve my own feelings.

After much soul searching though, i came to realise that the only thing that truly matters to me is my Mistress and doing my best to please her and keep her happy. If she feels Mistress Rubbergirl is able to look after me, whilst she herself is unable to, then i will follow her decision. Who am i to doubt her?
I am and will always be, Mistress Loola's pet, and as soon as she does return to SL i will be back at her side quicker than you can blink. *grins*
Until then though, i am proud and honoured to have Mistress Rubbergirl as a Mistress. She is a fabulous friend, woman, Mistress and more. To be in her presence is always an honour and i am honoured that she has agreed to take care of me.

So....my days will be a little different now. The rubber room is still of course, one of my main hang outs and i still have a bed there. For which i am ever grateful! But, on top of this i now have the constant care and protection of Mistress Rubbergirl as she welcomes me into her family.
So much so, she has even been kind enough to put a bed for me in her playroom so that i also have a place to rest when i am at her abode. Below is a peek of it for your pleasure and as the days go on i hope to have more news on all the changes and more as things develop. Hopefully, things will work out nicely and as always i must thank most of all my beloved, Mistress Loola xx

The Future

It's been an interesting couple of days for me. There is a lot happening but, not all of i feel able to speak of right now. I had contact from my Mistress this week, but i am waiting to see her face to face to fully appreciate and understand the extent of everything.
I know that she cares for me no end, but that as with everyone sometimes, she has things going on far bigger than anything waiting for her in SL right now and i fully respect that.

What i do know for sure is that Mistress Loola will be away a while longer yet and the future may be a little different for me. How exactly, time will tell and i will tell you more as i can. My mind has been racing the last couple of days and it is a hard time to be a pet. The person i need most and that my whole world is centred around, is out of my reach and there is nothing i can do about it.

The saving grace as always is having people who care for me to make sure i am getting by ok. I saw Alistair last night, for the first time in a while. Although only briefly it made me feel comforted to know he is still around and asking after me.
On top of that, i spent a little time with Jessie, Miss Thina's kitten, as i have previously called her in this blog. Although things with have altered it seems into a more mutual, loving partnership. A little surprising to come back to after only about a week away, but as long as they are happy, that's the main thing.
I hope to see more of them again soon as it is always fun to bump into them in the rubber room. As it is with many of the regulars who know me there.

Mistress Rubbergirl has been taking care of me of course as well. She was looking stunning last night in a clear latex outfit which definitely caught my eye. *winks* But, i was surprised to return the other day to discover Mistress Rubbergirl has a new pet, Carly, whom, more surprisingly, has many similarities to myself. Apparently Mistress Rubbergirl made her new pet read my blog to help see if the pet's life was for her and to understand what it is all about. I blushed greatly at this it is a lovely compliment to me. I hope Carly enjoyed my words in some way and i hope she is able to find herself happiness within her new role, and be able to commit to it long term. I am sure she will try to do Mistress Rubbergirl proud.
I have noticed an increase in pets recently over the past few months. It may be just coincidence, although i could be bigheaded and claim some credit for it *flex*. I would never be so arrogant though hehe.


Anyway, i will vanish for now and give more info on my situation as soon as i can. I need to resolve it all as quickly as you may want to know *smiles*

Time

Time away, once again. RL calls and all goes on hold for a few days. But, the break may have been good in some ways to distract me a bi. I miss Mistress Loola so much that it was starting to take its toll on me. So a few day away may have been a good way to catch some breath.
But, as always i return to the place where i can be myself the most. Mistress Rubbergirl was happy to see me of course and i was even happier to take up my place in the rubber room once more. Upon my bed.

Today's post is just brief, to mark my return and show that i am still here. As the weekend progresses, hopefully i will have more to share and more to talk about. We'll see what the future holds.

Time Off

A lack of posts over the weekend. This is because a busy few days in RL gave me an enforced break for a bit, but, this may have been a good thing. It gave me some time away to relax and unwind from the worry of missing my Mistress so much.

Mistress Loola has been away for a while now and it is starting to effect my moods. This pet has definite withdrawal symptoms. Restless and lacklustre, it has been difficult recently. But, at the same time, i have faith that i will come through the other side of this period intact and strong as ever.
I know that my Mistress does care for me and that when able to she will be with me and as supportive as ever.

In the meantime, i will try and keep calm and focus on the kindness of my friends who will always be there to help me.

Friends

I have been saying thank you to people already today for their care and help in cheering me up when i have been feeling down. As well as just for being kind enough to put up with just having me around all the time in general.

A special thanks to Miss Thina whom, in response to all my talk of pictures the other day, was fantastic enough to send me the picture below.
It is a picture of myself (in red this time *winks*) getting to know her little kitten a bit better *grins*. The kitten is such a cute thing and i think she will do her Mistress proud. She seems, even in the short time i have known her, to improved her in sense of awareness and devotion.
Miss Thina is always very kind to me and as with Mistress Rubbergirl, it is an honour to be in her good books, so i hope to see more of her soon. She also has a pony now i believe *smiles*, so her stable is growing already.

While i am on the topic of friendship and support, i would be silly not to mention Alistair and Dess. Their love and friendship for my Mistress is vast like mine and so, whilst we are all sad to be apart from her, we share a mutual understanding and for that i am grateful. As they always check up on me when they can.

It has been a nice day so far and i am looking forward to seeing some of these friends later possibly, along with Mistress Rubbergirl. Hopefully, the weekend ahead will be a good one with some nice tales to tell. I feel as if my last couple of posts weren't like the usual me. Probably, because i have been feeling a bit down from missing my Mistress. Hence i have eneded up doing two today now as if to make up for it.

Maybe Mistress Loola will get some time over the weekend to find me for a little? That would have me buzzing once more! *smiles*

Silver lining

As you saw i had a down day yesterday. The lack of my Mistress is taking it's toll on me. Mistress Loola's absence does start to effect me after a while, as is obviously apparent. A pet without it's owner is a sad thing. The lost look in my eyes as i wander about being obvious to my friends who are all being so kind in their efforts to cheer me up.

That is where the silver lining comes in. *smiles* The people who know and care for are always doing their best to ensure i am feeling ok and to make me smile.
Among the crowd of course is Mistress Rubbergirl once more. Her kindness and care knows no bounds and i am always flattered that she thinks so highly of me.
She seems to treat me as if i was one of her own, despite the fact that i am not. I have met her dolls and kept her company. I have warmed her legs with my body as i sit and rest my head in her lap and she always seeks to do the best for me.

It is an honour to be so highly thought of and i am very happy that Mistress Loola asked her to keep an eye on me in her absence. I am of course longing for Mistress Loola and hope she comes back more regularly soon, but, in the meantime i am always happy to be with Mistress Rubbergirl and i hope to see more of her later.

She has learned of my passions over time and even teased me earlier by saying that she will be wearing her short dress later to show off her lovely legs that i am so fond of. It is both a pleasure and a pain to be sat so low down with such beautiful shapes filling my eyes, knowing that such pleasures are beyond the means of a pet like myself. But, i savour the fact that i get to sit so close to them and watch her closely as i smile inside my mask as my skin tingles with excitement.
I have a feeling that after building my heart rate with such a sight she will push me over the edge by blowing air into the intake valve of my mask and causing me to overload *grins*

I will be sure to let you know the outcome tomorrow *winks*

Tinged with sadness

A quiet couple of days for me. I have not lingered in the rubber room as much as i normally do. So much so that i have not seen Mistress Rubbergirl or many other of my friends, since my last entry.
I did see Dess for a while yesterday. She is looking more attractive than ever in gorgeous little combo she has taken to wearing. Plus, she was wearing the mask my Mistress tends to wear most recently. One of her own designs of course, and it makes me feel a sense of familiar warmth as i stare up at her eyes hiding behind that lovely rubber mould. But, at the same time. It just enhances the longing and sadness i feel for being apart from my Mistress for a while now.

I know she would only be away for so long with important matters. RL must take priority, so i hope she is doing ok and that everything will work out soon.
But, there are of course times when it hits me hard and today i am feeling downbeat from it all. I feel incomplete without Mistress Loola and lacking purpose. My Mistress provides my welfare and being. Without her i sometimes just feel...lack lustre i guess.
I usually cope quite well in her absence i feel. Making the effort to impress in her name and feeling happy just to socialise in her honour. But, it has been a while now without any extended time with her and i think it was going take its toll on me some form eventually.

I am not changing my plans or dreams. Do not worry. I would not seek to change any of my commitments to my Mistress or my chosen life. It's just an expression of my feelings today. That's what this blog is all about after all. I am a loving pet, an adoring companion to keep my Mistress company. So, it is only natural to miss my owner when she is away.

Modelling

Lots of pictures will fill my blog today. Mistress Rubbergirl was taking some pictures of her Latexdoll in one of the Rubber Room's little hide aways and she was kind enough to take some of me too, once she was done.
Once taken, the Mistress then topped off my excitement by sending me copies of the pictures so that i may have them, not just for myself, but of course, so that i may also use them in my blog and/or web album.


This was so thoughtful of Mistress Rubbergirl and i am thrilled with how the pictures look. Plus, on a more personal level i get a different sensation when i look at them as i am actually able to see myself and i tingle when i see how close i am to her, or how i look to the outside the world for once.
My sense of self is reduced by the fact that when living my daily life and looking around, my mask HUD and enforced mouselook prevents me from seeing my own image in any way. Making other people the centre of my attention and rightly so.
It ensures that i am less vain and self centred than some subs or pets may become at some point and keeps me thinking as my Mistress wishes.


So, when i see myself in a picture someone sends me, such as the one above, it is almost a shock to think of it as me. I feel excited and tingle with pride at the realisation that it is me looking so cute in the images i see.
It may sound odd, but when you go without seeing yourself for as long as i have it is a litte bizarre and overwhelming to get to grips with. Try not looking in any mirrors for a couple of months and you may begin to get somewhere near the feeling. *winks* I love it though, and wouldn't change it for the world. If anything, it just makes little things such as this all the more special to me. A picture paints a thousand words they say. In my case, that is most definitely true hehe.


Thank you Mistress Rubbergirl then, for being so kind to me as always. The picture above showing just how attentive she can be to me. I may sound like a broken record for repeating it over so many posts. But, i have to make clear how grateful i am for her care recently. She has been a fantastic guardian and i hope she realises how much that means to me.
On a lighter note though, below is a picture i am thrilled about as it finally allows me to show the lovely bed i have been given in the Rubber Room. My own spot to settle on and relax in comfort as i gaze around the room and listen in on all the goings on around me. Oh and it provides me with an excellent view of the stage as well to watch the dancers with *wink*


The rest of the day was quite fun, while i was around as i saw lots of people i knew. So many at one point that i couldn't keep up with them all. Seeing Miss Thina and her kitten always makes me smile as well as Lycra, Alistair, Princess Cookie and so many more. Despite the sadness that i feel from being apart from my Mistress for so long, i am happy that i have made so many friends who look out for me. I try to focus on them and the goings on around me to distract me from the lack of Mistress Loola's presence and i am thankful to know each and every one of them.

Oh and a special mention to Kate today as well. One of the rubber room's dancers and dj's. She was looking fabulous yesterday in a gorgeous long red dress. She promised to send me some kisses across the room, next time she is dancing on stage, so this is to make sure she doesn't forget *grins*
Plus, since i am on a photo theme, if any friends/readers take any nice pics you think i may like to use in my blog, i cannot receive them in SL, but, you can always email to me at loolaspet@gmail.com

Reputation?

A quiet day yesterday. But, then, i guess sundays can be that way. The rubber room had long sparse periods where either i would be the only person around or just with one or two other visitors.

During these quiet times, i tend to sit and reflect on things. My Mistress, of course, my friends and other people i have met over the last few days. The added bonus now of course is that i have a bed of my own to relax in while i ponder such things. I am still honoured and delighted with my latest treat and hope that my pleasure has not gone unnoticed.

I find myself feeling bashful and yet touched sometimes recently. My constant presence in the rubber room combined with my commitment seems to be gaining me a small reputation amongst some. I think, anyway. I am doing my best to overlook it and i do not wish to seem bigheaded. But, i find myself blushing constantly recently as there are times when i get a string of compliments from various sources in quick succession and i do my best to be modest and thankful at all times as i am very thankful of course to be noticed. Not to mention proud of course.
It is Mistress Loola though who i know that i have to thank for any and all praise i receive and any enhancement to my reputation that goes with it. She has helped to mould me into the loving pet that i have become and for that i am ever grateful.

Mistress Rubbergirl was of course, a highlight of my day as usual. I met one of her dolls for the the first time today. They seemed very sweet and i am sure that they serve the Mistress well. The dolly was kind enough to begin reading my blog and so that is one quick way to get into my good books of course *winks*
Later on in the evening as the day wore to a close and the people lessened around us, i shared some quiet time with Mistress Rubbergirl. I have tried to express to the Mistress how as time goes on in Mistress Loola's absence that i am more and more thankful for her affection as my fondness of her grows.

Mistress Loola is by far, without a doubt my reason for being and my only desire. But, Mistress Rubbergirl has, as she sweetly suggested recently, become the second most important person in my life and....i think she may well be right. *smiles*

Rubber Ladies

I am still trying to contain my excitement this morning as a i recover from a fabulous night in the rubber room. The main instigators in my pleasure last night is down to two rubber ladies.
Rubber Robonaught, the fabulous owner of the Rubber Room and of course Mistress Rubbergirl, my rubber clad guardian who only seems to improve in her understanding and manipulation of me.

I will start with Rubber Robonaught. She is always looking fabulous as you would expect for someone with such a name usually clad in gorgeous outfits that make my heart melt.
Anyway, Rubber always says hi to me and spots me trotting around the club. A long time ago, she joked that she should make me a little bed somewhere in room to be able to rest. On seeing her again the other night, she was amazed to realise how long i had been in the Rubber Room without going anywhere else and that i am basically resident here nowadays. This much is true, as Mistress Loola leaves me here whenever she is offline, so that i may mingle in a friendly environment.
So, last night you can imagine my pleasure when i logged in to discover a new addition to the room. Positioned neatly on a rug in front of the stage, surrounded by a row of seats is a lovely looking new pet basket. A bed placed there especially for me.

To be considered special enough and thought of in high enough regard for Rubber to take the time to put a bed down for me, I am completely overwhelmed. I am so grateful for her efforts and hope she realises how happy and excited this made me. After she told me about it, i trotted around the room looking for her, to nuzzle her in thanks and express my joy. But, the club was so busy last night that i could not pick her out. Unable to see her name and tell her apart i struggled to cope. So i ended up having to emote my thanks in general and hoping that she spotted it.
I will be sure to thank her more personally next time i have her one on one. In the meantime, maybe she will read this or someone who has will let her know how thankful i am. It is truly and honour and you are sure to find me in or near the bed from now on *grins*

The other star of the night was, as mentioned, my beloved Mistress Rubbergirl. I made a slight fool of myself at the start of the evening by expressing my disappointment at not having seen her the day before and feeling a little lost.
She had of course been busy with her own doll and was unable to catch me before i vanished for the night. I blushed at coming across as so petty and apologised for being silly. Mistress Rubbergirl of course has her own life to keep up with and looks out for me as a favour for my Mistress, a point which i should remember all the time.

But, having quickly moved on and settled happily in our usual spot, i was soon treated to something special. After having chatted with me and caught up on things the Mistress blew a long slow breath into the intake valve of my mask with a wry smile on her face. She has discovered some of my weaknesses over the last couple of weeks and i am sure my Mistress Loola would not begrudge me some small pleasure in her absence.
My head swam as i was intoxicated by her breath filling my mask. My body tingled and I inhaled deeply, trying to savour the taste as i felt my body tremble with pleasure.
Having exhaled and gazed up in thanks as i sat there tingling, i was suddenly given another breath before i had time to recover. Overwhelmed at this second burst of pleasure, i trembled and flinched as i inhaled again. My mask filled with her sweet air as i took it all in. Holding the breath and trembling as my heart raced and my body started to get by hotter.
As i looked up at the Mistress and exhaled with a slow breath, my head swimming, body tingling and fighting to keep my composure.
Two such breaths in a row is a very rare treat and i hardly believed my luck, before something else happened. Mistress Rubbergirl, grinning happily at my current state then proceeded to blow a series of short sharp breaths into my mask. In a constant effort to tease me further.

I am getting myself all excited now just thinking about it as i type these words. I think it says so much about the manner of my restrictions and confinement that I am so easily pleased. Without any physical contact i can be brought to the brink of ecstasy as my body craves the intimacy that is so often unobtainable.
For this very reason I adore my Mistress. Mistress Loola has shaped me into a loving rubber pet who will not only bend to her every whim but is also filled with a sense of pent up passion and energy for the slightest moment of pleasure.
Mistress Rubbergirl has earned a place in my heart over the last couple of weeks from her commitment and care to my life. So, having her treat me in such a way is why i got so excited from such a small thing. Her breath was intoxicating and i am simply thrilled that she was able to thrill me in such a way. Seriously, I got a little carried away *grins*

But, as always, in the bigger picture it is all down to Mistress Loola. Her rules and restrictions, combined with the manner in which she has shaped and cared for me are all part of the reason I can be teased in such a seemingly simple way.
I hope my Mistress will not mind my moment of pleasure. I am always mindful of her feelings and never wish to do anything she would not approve of. But, at the same time, i am sure that Mistress Rubbergirl is the safest person to be with in the mean time and i know that my Mistress only wants me to happy as much as i want the same for her. Especially in her absence.

So, it was the night of rubber ladies. What more can say. Rubber makes the heart grow fonder *winks*

Downtime

A very brief post today by my normal standards. (Yes you can rest easy, i won't wear you out today^^) This is mainly because i was not online too much yesterday, so there is little to share for once.

The most important thing to mention though is that i did get to speak with my Mistress for a short period. Although, it was so brief i did not actually get to see her in person, which is a little saddening. She assured me though that she is thinking of me and that hopefully time will be more on our side soon as she hopes to be more present soon.
It goes without saying that this prospect has me tingling at the very thought. I cannot wait to be with her more regularly again. Everyone is being so kind to me in Mistress Loola's absence, but i will only be complete when she is with me once more.

The remainder of my time yesterday was spent sitting in the rubber room greeting people and passing the time as usual. Miss Thina's kitten was with me for a while. She always seems happy to see me and is also testing her abilities it seems. She was only using emotes yesterday like myself and on top of this she has been given a name changer by her Mistress, so that she is represent in chat as being 'Thina's Little Kitten'.
It makes me smile to see her developing and to see that her Mistress is slowly moulding her into the perfect pet she obviously hopes to achieve. I really look forward to seeing more of their development together and i will be keeping my eyes in Miss Thina's blog in the hope for more interesting stories of the two of them.

Oh and before i go, a quick mention of a gorgeous looking blue rubber doll i played with called Apollo. She looks so delectable in her tight outfit and i must give compliments to her Mistress. Even though i did help get her into trouble.
The dolly enjoyed me nuzzling her so much that she got a bit carried away and as a result was given some electric shocks by her Mistress. Hopefully she did not mind too much though. I wonder what trouble i can get her into next time? hehe

Roll on the weekend and more fun times ahead i am sure *winks*

Uplifted

Well, 24 hours is a long time as a pet. Long enough for my mood to brighten and to have experienced a pleasant evening to help me through some of the melancholy that i felt a little earlier.
Some people picked up on the sightly sadder tone than usual in my last blog post. I was merely trying to express how difficult this life can be occasionally. It is not always sunshine and rainbows. But then, what is? I have hopes and expectations like everyone, but patience is a virtue as they always say and I am still content, still proud to be the way i am. More importantly, still adoring of my Mistress and looking forward to seeing her again.

Mistress Rubbergirl, whom, ensured with my care when ever my Mistress is away, was very supportive last night. She took the time to reassure me of the love that both my Mistress and she feel for me. Holding my head and looking into my eyes as she spoke to me, expressing her understanding of my role. The way i live and devote myself to Mistress Loola and how tricky that can be.


Resting my head on her knee and taking in her support as i listened carefully, was very uplifting and i thank her for the time she puts into looking out for me. Even though i am not her property. She seems honoured that Mistress Loola asked her to watch over me and takes that responsibility very seriously. So i always ensure i give her my full attention, trying my best to please her, as i am sure my Mistress would want me to.
When Mistress Loola is away i am her representative in the rubber room. I carry her name over me at all times, so i always aim to be the best pet anyone has ever seen. To make people envious of her. It's a fun game for me to play. *winks*
But, i must thank of course Mistress Loola for being aware of the needs of this pet and having the forethought to ask Mistress Rubbergirl to keep her eye on me. It is another hint towards my Mistress awareness and care. I am a very affectionate pet, who despite my inability to chat to people in a 'normal' manner, does love company and affection. Like most animals do. So i am grateful for her actions. Even from afar.

As the evening rolled on more and more people seemed to appear and join what seems to be becoming 'our' sofa. *smiles* Lycra, Alistair, Viktoria and more joined us to relax and chat. I sit there, happily nuzzling people's boots and listening in on the conversation. I have noticed Mistress Rubbergirl always seems to end up surrounded by lots of people where ever we sit. Maybe she is just very popular, i am not sure. But, it's always a busy and fun time to try and follow.


Viktoria being there last night reminded me of a conversation i had with my Mistress the other day. Mistress Loola pointed out how interesting it was from reading my blog that my view of things shows how it is the 'little' things that matter to a pet.

[2010/05/18 14:01] Loola Lassally: V.I.P.s are not worth a mention, but seemless small things mean alot

This is because when i first met Lady Viktoria, i had no idea who she is. I have no idea who anyone is after all. So, i cannot prejudge people, or be affected by reputation as that stuff is meaningless to me. I can only respond and base my feelings on people by their actions or words. Nothing more.
Lady Viktoria approached me to ask how or where i got my hair the style it is. In a rubbery texture. I did my best to answer her and treated her like any other person. Which, afterwards, Mistress Loola found quite amusing. The fact that supposedly people are normally fawning over her and making a big thing of her presence. Due to the popular boots that she designs.

I was slightly taken aback when Mistress Loola explained this point to me, but i understood the effect that was expressing. I am shaped by my Mistress to see things in a different way and to explore the world as a pet. With her as the centre of all things. If this means that everyone else drifts into the crowd then so be it. As long as i know where my Mistress is, i will be fine *winks*

Every Positive has a Negative

An odd feeling fills me today. Anyone who knows me or has read enough of my blog will know that i don't mention too many negative things. Usually because i am lucky enough to not have many of them. I lead a very privileged existence and i know it. I am a very lucky pet, to lead such a blessed life under the rule of one of the finest Mistress' i could ever imagine.

Last night was one i had looked forward to as my Mistress had told me before hand that she should be online. Which with her busy schedule recently is a major cause for excitement.
I was thrilled to see my Mistress and that is an understatement. It is not easy to put into my words that happiness i feel being alongside her. Even for a short while. She is quite simply everything i need.
But, my Mistress is also an extremely popular figure and rightly so *smiles*. She makes the finest masks and is generally respected for her fine personality. Not to mention the fact that having trained and surrounded herself with some amazing dolls and a certain pet, Mistress Loola catches people's attention where ever she goes. I guess having a bright pink pet chasing round after you does tend to catch ones eye hehe

Anyway. This means that when Mistress Loola does reappear in busy areas such as the rubber room after a prolonged break, she is in high demand. I understand this of course. If anything it makes me proud to have such a well known respected owner and i do not begrudge her anything.
But, i also know how hectic she has it and how many things/people she has to deal with. My Mistress mentioned to me at one point last night that her delay in responding was because she had 12 IM conversations going on with various people.
This makes it hard for a creature like me. I am so happy to see my Mistress and i am keen (like everyone else who is probably speaking with her) to catch up, to chat, to just be with her. But, after having waited and stuck to my role, I have to sit quietly and patiently while the world catches up with her.
This is not a complaint about my Mistress. I love Mistress Loola so much and she always makes sure i am looked after. It is more just a statement on how hard it can be to live this life.

This blog after all is about a pets life and this is one of things that this pet is having to deal with. Most of the other people who catch up with my Mistress and hurry to chat after a gap in communication, are i am sure able to have done other things in the mean time. To have chatted to people, traveled and more. They have been able to fill the loss of my Mistress with other occupations and hobbies until such time as they can chat to her again.
For me....I cannot teleport, or chat, use notecards, inventory, or see the world from a bigger picture. My world is my Mistress. So when my Mistress is away, it is as if i have lost the world, i have lost my main focus and my ability to share so many things with the ONLY person who can truly understand me.
But...as a good pet should. I sit, i rest my head on Mistress lap and watch and listen as the world revolves around her and i wait for the good times to come. The times alone. The times when all those voices in the ether will fade for just long enough for us to be able to enjoy the calm for a moment more.

So don't think this life is easy. It is harder than you know and yet....I keep my head high and carry on with my path. Through loyalty, love and devotion. Mistress Loola deserves all of this of this from me and more. How could i not put up with tough moments like this for someone so special?