Quiet times

Time is moving slowly this week. When ever i am logged in recently i am just biding my time until she returns. I have been very unlucky in terms of lacking time with her recently and i sincerely hope she is ok.

Without her, things are never as exciting. I rely on her greatly as i have virtually no independence left. I am merely a pet after all, reliant on my owner to look after me. No matter how skilled i may be, i am nothing without Mistress Loola.

I do know however that as with everything and everyone, RL comes first and that in time things will be back to normal. My Mistress is just as deserving of my understanding as i am of hers. We are nothing without a respect for each other and so i will wait. Like a good pet should. Until my Mistress returns.

The sim i was left to roam on when i last saw my Mistress was full of fetich shops and other such intrigues, which i was happily walking through, investigating when ever i needed to pass the time.

However, on logging in the other day i found that the sim had been redesigned a bit in my absence. The shops seem to have all been compressed into a 2 storey shopping mall for a more convenient design. The problem with this for little old me, is that my last spot is now outside of the building. A building which has no 'normal' entrance. I cannot use landmarks or teleports and i cannot fly, meaning that basically....i am now locked outside. Unable to get inside.

I sat for a while on the grass, staring across the horizon wondering what to do with myself next. Having spent some time already trying to access the mall, i realised it was a fruitless task. So, i sat...and thought. I sat for some time, listening to the sound of my own breathing.

The complete silence around me, meaning that the noise of my gasmask filled my ears with every breath as i sat there and thought of Mistress and my place in the world.

In an odd way it was actually quite soothing. No, other noises, no distractions. Just me and my breathing reverberating through my head.

A bit of solitude can be good sometimes. It helps to relax and clear the head. If you get the chance to be locked outside a shopping mall with no way in, I recommend you try it too *winks*

After quite some time, i eventually decided to roam further afield. Beyond the edge of the horizon to see what i could find. I wondered over the green fields and around some restricted land until i eventually stumbled into someone's garden.

In this garden i finally met some new faces and felt happy to have found some company. A couple of ladies there were chatting about various things and after a while greeted me as i tried my best to show my affection and happiness at meeting them.

The one lady is called Miss Sarah i believe and she seemed most amicable. Nearby, on a stone plinth sits a far more interesting subject though. A Tiger frozen as a statue, watching over all of us. This Tigress also seems restricted to emotes and trapped in her own form of submission. I felt a little kinship as i do with most people who show such devotion to someone. Plus, this Tiger looks particularly cute if you ask me *smiles*

I rubbed against the base of her stone plinth and purred, showing my affection as we bonded and tried our best to communicate. There was a mutual recognition there which i definitely appreciated and i look forward to seeing her again soon, as i was unable to stay much longer on this night. But, as i will be returning to the same spot soon. I am sure i will learn more soon.

Anyway, i will bring you more news soon as always and hopefully i will soon see Mistress Loola as i simply incomplete without her. A lonely animal wandering lost until i am recovered. I wish my Mistress well and hope we will be together soon. x

Devotion

Been a few days since my last post. RL takes its toll some time on all of us. Cutting down on my time to write for you. As well as my time with Mistress Loola, which, is of course much more upsetting to be missing out on.But, i know that these days come and go. Soon enough i will be at her side once more and rewarded for my devotion and efforts. At least that is always my hope. I of course have no say in the matter. I will simply wait as i must and live the life i am given.

Mistress Loola rules my world and i am happy to have it so. Even when we miss each other for a while, i am kept going by the knowledge of the fact that i am honouring her desires and acting in her name. This should truly be enough for most people, as my Mistress is such a wonder that being given the chance to serve her in such a committed fashion is a real blessing and one that i carry with pride.

Alistair as always has been on hand to keep me company in my time alone. I am on some sim full of fetish shops. Free to roam and investigate as i can. Alistair often comes to find me when i appear online and talks to me of all sorts.

I sometimes wonder if i keep him company more than he does me *winks*. Being so reliant on emotes for communication i am not always the most fascinating conversation and yet, he tries his best to share stories or chat about things are for each of us. I am truly grateful for his friendship. It is nice to be appreciated and i think he respects the devotion i show to my Mistress, as well as understanding how challenging it can be to have such restrictions in my life. Even though i enjoy it and do not find my pet status hard to live in, it is touching to be cared for.

We saw an interesting cyberslut of some sort last night while mooching around. I have enclosed a pic below as it is an interesting look. Alistair seemed very impressed and as such we had to check the nearby shops after to see where it was from. I think Alistair wanted to buy it to add to his collection, but who knows. All i did was follow him around *grins*

My pictures look a little different nowadays, since i have had my hud enforced fully by Mistress Loola. I could of course, have screenshots not show hud items, but, i feel that this would be wrong. The whole point of my blog is to give you all an insight into the life i live as a pet and the view i have of the world is an integral part of that.

The two small ovals through which i view the world as they fog up with my breath, have a huge impact on my demeanour. I can only see in front of me and this has one key importance. That when i sit before my Mistress (i am always supposed to sit facing my Mistress whenever she is around, unless told otherwise) i can only see her and no one else. Sitting there gazing up at her, keeping viewed in my lenses means she becomes the only thing that matters. The only thing to focus my eyes on and the only thing to care about. The centre of my universe...and i love her for making me feel so attached to her.

She has over time made me completely reliant on her. My Mistress owns me, body and soul. I am helpless without her and i would have it no other way.

So. For bette or worse, i am Mistress Looa's pet. For as long as she will have me and how could i ever want anything more?

Friends

Last night was a wonderful night in the rubber room. Well, almost. Mistress Loola was not around, so the night was not perfect and never could be. But, in her absence the nicest thing that can happen is to see some friends and meet new people along the way too.

I was sitting in the rubber room. Working on my last blog post as it happens and in my distraction i was surrounded before i knew it by two of my dearest friends. Alistair and Claudia had crept up on me and were stood there ready to pet and greet me with warmth.

It is so touching to know that people who know me take the time and effort to come and greet me and give me some affection. I will be sure to continue to be as attentive as ever, in the hope that my loyalty continues to bring such rewarding kindness. Pets earn their treats and i feel like i am doing just that *smiles*

Claudia was looking as lovely as ever. I adore the boots she wears and love to nuzzle against them when ever i can. She is such a tender girl, always looking out for me and i am thankful to have become familiar with her as there are far worse people i could be sitting next to late at night *grins*

Alistair often comes to check on me. Especially when Mistress Loola is offline. He seems to care greatly for my welfare and appreciates the commitment i put in for my Mistress.

As such he tends to check on how i am doing, coming to say hi and petting me. Where ever i may be on a particular day and i love him for that.

For a pet, i have built some great friends along the way and hope i will continue to break new boundaries over time.

Whilst sat next to Claudia as the evening wore on, i witnessed the arrival of another pet, in a similar vein to myself but with a few key differences.

Her name was Cookie and she too could only emote and is in a similar crouched low on the floor. She has a similar ao infact, but with a few modifications. Cookie appears with wings and a slightly more mythical appearance, but other than that seems to be much the same.

We investigated each other closely through our masks and nuzzled each other. Taking the time to work each other out and share feelings on each of our appearances.

Some of the people in the club even commented on how cute we looked playing together. My black counterpart and I bonding over our similar view of the world.

It is amazing the people you meet in SL and even more amazing when you meet people of a similar disposition. There is truly something for everyone and you are never alone in your fetish or desires as there is always someone out there just like you *winks*

Pet views

Living in mouseview with my mask hud locked on, is an interesting experience. One that i feel i am growing into already as it makes me feel so like a pet should do.

I am truly made to feel low down, forced to look up at everyone if i wish to see their faces. Even then, the best view i have is of their legs and really feel like a lowly animal should. Every one has to look down on me and i truly feel it. Plus, in a bizarre way people seem more overpowering and glamorous to me from this position.

I think it is the sheer height they present when standing over me. I cannot help but feel overwhelmed and in awe of the humans around me.

I have also found that now i am locked into this lifestyle it is becoming even harder to grasp who is who and which humans around me are actually speaking.

This is because, although i have not seen names for a while, i was able to mouse over people and see who was showing as 'this stranger' or 'a person' etc. Which if their was no one else around being given that title in chat then you could at least put the clues together and see who is speaking. Even if i don't know their names.

But, with this option taken away from me now, i am truly lost as to what is going on. More than ever the humans around me are like some foreign beings from another land.

I am made to feel often like a mysterious bystander as i sit and watch them interacting with each other. Trying to make sense of it all.

Until of course, someone speaks to me at which point i feel excited and happy to be noticed, although when Mistress is not around to help me, it can be very tricky to work out who i should be thanking if their is a few people around. But, oh well. I guess that just means i will have to be extra nice to everyone as always *winks*

I was wondering around the rubber room investigating the people last night when i came to a very pretty girl in one of the chairs, whom i sat next to and gave some attention. Rubbing her boots with my head and purring happily.

Sitting beside her i realised how small i felt. Even with her sitting on the chair i was no higher than her knees and her long boots fill up my vision with wonder. I have to gaze upwards to see her face and feel humbled to get a little affection as she has look down to notice me there.

It truly makes a difference. Something so simple as changing my view of the world has a drastic impact in the way i perceive others and the way everything makes me feel.

Mistress Loola was right to enforce such commitment on me as i truly feel in my place now and i am indebted to her for giving me the chance to experience it.

Plus, her contact is now my utter focus and attention as she has the only chance to speak with me directly. The only chance to control me and direct my life and as such i am hers alone to love and adore. I will be at her side giving her my adoration every second as she is truly the centre of my universe.

On a separate note, Mistress Loola was kind enough to take some pictures the other night when her 2 dolls and I were all in attendance to serve her for the night.

We all visited the rubber room together and Mistress had us all dance for her entertainment. Even little old me. Which is a rare treat for such an animal! *smiles*

So, with thanks to my dear Mistress, below is a pic of us all in action. The Loola family at play *winks*

Reunion

Mistress logs in and all is well. There is no happier feeling than seeing Mistress Loola come online, knowing that i will soon be with her once more.

Within moments i am teleported to her side and reunited as i return my full attention to her and have the chance to speak with and talk of how things are going. Simple things, but they make everything worth while.

But, tonight was more than just a one on one reunion. Two of my Mistress' dolls also came home tonight and the 3 of us sat in adoration. Surrounding her in her lounger as she surveyed her property. We are were all given matching red outfits tonight to match Mistress Loola and as we sit together, we really do look like some sort of family. A slightly kinky one maybe, but at least we have a theme. *smiles*

Tonight was also special to me for another reason. Mistress Loola felt playful enough while surrounded by her subjects to further my progression into her control and my life as a pet, by enforcing the hud on my gas mask. Restricting me to mouse look from now on.

The breath fogs my lenses as i breath clouding my view and i must gaze high up to see my Mistress clearly.

Being a pet, kneeling low on the floor means that my most immediate view of Mistress Loola is now her boots and legs. Which is of course, nothing to complain about! Mistress Loola has a beautiful body and i am blessed to be able to look at it any sense. Especially as i often get to sit so close to those very legs as i purr happily. Safe in my favourite spot at her side *grins*

Seeing the world in this way and not being able to see myself anymore ensures that Mistress is now the complete focus of my attention. She gives me purpose, as my best chance of keeping up with things and pleasing her is to keep my gaze on her. To do otherwise would turn me away from her for one thing and that is not allowed. As a loving pet i must always sit watching my Mistress. She is all that matters to me. In fact, i have always loved to do so, but, now i have a greater sense of belonging. Everything else drifts out of view and my Mistress is more than ever the centre of my universe.

What more could anyone ask for?

Wandering

A quiet couple of days for activity and not too much to report. With RL causing to miss each other a bit, i am still in the club that we logged out in the other night.

A place called Dark Refuge, which seems to be very much in keeping with my spirit . *winks*

I have seen a few other pets while i have been here and even had a lovely meeting with a kitty named Cosma, who suffocated me for a moment by plugging up the valve of the breather on my mask. But, it was worth the lack of oxygen for the fun. *smiles*

The club seems to be a german sim. English is primarily the second language here, so i have to work extra hard to keep up with everything. But, i think i am doing ok. I am being polite and obedient as usual and doing my best to honour my Mistress. It seems to be working as i have been getting some nice responses from most of the people. Which is always a nice feeling when you have to work so hard at communication.

Mistress Loola will hopefully return soon though to keep me company once more. There is no one who can understand me like my Mistress. She is the only one who can hear my voice and fully be aware of my needs and feelings. As well as ensuring that her pet is doing exactly as she wishes.

I long to her see her everyday and can't wait to be at her side. But, i will wait till then, as i must. Because a good pet does as it is told and always waits for their Mistress.

Self Aware

Once again, the evil aspects of SL came into play recently. The rubber room sim was down when i logged in the other day and as such i ended up moved to some adult social hub in the meantime.

For most people this is a minor inconvenience who will then go elsewhere, or return to their home, once their sim is fixed.

When you are a simple pet though, reliant on your Mistress. This can be a bit more of an issue. My teleport abilities are restricted in every way. Only my Mistress can teleport me to where ever she may be. So when i get booted to a random location....I am stuck. At least until my Mistress logs in to bring me back to her.

But, as stressful as this can be at first. I always try and make the most of it. I try to explore where ever i end up and maybe even mingle a bit, in the hope of meeting some friendly people who have a moment to pamper a pet for a moment with some fuss.

You do see some strange people in these places. Shouting or bumping into people for example. But, my saving grace is that i am locked safely away in my mask and all my other bindings. So that no one can hurt me anyway. I am secured away for my Mistress, which fills me happiness. Plus, this is when IM restriction can feel quite nice as i don't have to worry about any strangers spamming me as it has no effect *winks* Life as a pet has it's bonuses.

Logging back in yesterday though, to find my Mistress already on line for once was a happy experience. It has been rare over the past week that she has been on so early and it is always a plus to spend even a minute of extra time with her. So it was a lovely evening.

Mistress Loola, summoned me too her and i found myself accompanying her in some fetish club we have never visited before. With various shops attached to it.

I took my place by my Mistress and purred happily as this is where i feel the happiest. Sat beside her beautiful figure and watching her closely as i savour every second in her presence.

On arriving Mistress altered my colour scheme to red. I think, so that i match her outfit, although red was also a main colour in the club. Either way, it is thrilling when she has such freedom to alter me as she wishes. I am just her pet to do with as she wishes and nothing makes me happier than being able to please her.

Mistress Loola said that after my arrival the number of IMs she got shot up and that she was suddenly very popular.

I take this as an immense compliment, although it is all due to my Mistress i think if people are impressed with me. She is the one who has helped me look so good, as she controls my image and set the rules by which i live. I merely do my best to abide by her and live up to her high standards. So, if i am able to impress people in doing so, then i am all the happy.

Mistress eventually allowed me to explore the club a little while she was busy. So, i gratefully wondered around and scuttled between all the dancers. Taking in the sights and peeking at the shops. All the time keeping one eye on my Mistress of course incase she needs me. But, i did not venture for too long, or too far, as i cannot bear to be from my Mistress for too long as she the centre of my world and all that i revolve around. Soon i trotted home and took my place with her once more and i beamed brightly as Mistress gave me a little pet for being good. *grins*

The other day i mentioned here how Mistress was planning to take my final freedom away next week some time. To complete my final step into being the complete pet for her.

After dwelling on this for quite some time, i believed i had thought of what this final action may be and when i discussed it with Mistress Loola, my fantasies it seems will become reality as she confirmed my theory with a smile.

Despite every restriction i have i am still self aware and able to see the world as many others do. Even if i don't know names and things, the visual aspect stays the same.

Soon however, Mistress will enforce the HUD onto my mask, restricting my view of the world as well and making me see the world through a pets eyes. When i look to Mistress, she will be all i see. The focus of everything and my own appearance and self will become unimportant. As Mistress puts it, she will become my identity as i lose the last thing that makes me independent and i become even more reliant on her. I will live for nothing else than to be her perfect pet and as i gazing up at her through the lenses of my mask will be the thing that keeps me focused and makes me happy. Mistress Loola is all i need to think about and i am happy to do so *smiles*