Fulfillment

Yesterday was the pinnacle of enjoyment after my weekend spent wandering alone. I had spent another day without my Mistress, trotting around the rubber room and mingling with the people. As has been my role recently. But.....shortly before bedtime, late in the evening my Mistress finally logged in after some time off and my heart skipped a beat *smiles*

I was actually sitting beside another Mistress at the time, enjoying her affection and rubbing against her boot. A fine looking lady in long boots and an extremely sexy tight latex outfit. She had been very complimentary of me and spoke as if we knew each other already, but i am ashamed to say i could not work out who it was. (As is often the way) It is easier to remember people who keep certain items as part of their wardrobe. A certain 'something' that makes them easy to identify. But, as a lot of people quite rightly like to change their look on a daily basis. I am often helpless to spot familiar faces and as such all i can do is greet everyone as if they are a newcomer, until i get a clue as to who they are.

Anyway, i digress. When i saw the popup appear to tell me that Mistress Loola was coming online. I could barely contain myself. She is the only person who I can IM with and chat to directly. As she likes to ensure that i am hers alone. As such, it is even more exciting for me when the Mistress arrives, as there is a flood of excitement as i rush to speak with her. I try not to overwhelm her with mindless spam, but it is as if the floodgates have opened as she is the one person who has my heart and every other part of me, when i come to think of it and that i am immediately ready to submit myself to her all over again. I literally tingle all over as i wait with anticipation for her words to bless my ears and be given the honour of her time once more.

It was a fabulous reunion for me. Mistress soon came to the RR to find me and on discovering my continued progress on my blog and speaking to some people around her. She said i done very well in her absence and....even finally earned my tail! This is a big step and a major achievement. I have been a pet without a tail for sometime. Knowing that Mistress said i must earn it. To have been told that i have finally done so, means i could not be happier. The knowledge of making my Mistress happy is more than i need to continue with my pet status and hard work.
I informed the Mistress that i have a little goal that I set myself when i am alone. My aim is always to be on my best behaviour with the intention of making other people jealous of my Mistress and her fine pets. It may seem a little big headed but it helps to have a goal and something to work towards when you cannot speak directly with people and are in essence alone for a time. To know that i can honour my Mistress and make people think of her even when she is not there, is a fun thing for me to occupy myself with.

So, you can imagine my surprise and elation when she informed me that i had already achieved this. I can only guess that people were updating her on my actions already, as we were with the Mistress i mentioned earlier, plus the lovely Claudia arrived and petted and complimented me too in my Mistress presence. On top of this, my Mistress is of course already a very popular figure. What with her shops and her lovely manner, i am always aware that people may be chatting to her at any time. To know that she was impressed with my actions so soon after finding me again, fills me with pride and i can only hope to continue as well as i have.
In fact, Mistress decided she should leave me in the rubber room whenever she is offline so that i may socialise and continue as i have. Not only does this mean more fun for me, but the fact my Mistress will be happy too, makes everything i go through, worth while. :)

Hangout

The day has gone quicky today. A fine sunday in which i have socialised and made friends whilst hopefully setting a good example for myself.

As with the last few days i am occupying the rubber room  as i cannot teleport anywhere. But, to be honest it is one of the places i like to be when Mistress Loola is away for a while as i enjoy interacting with the people there and several of my old friends still visit it from time to time, so it is a good place for me to be trapped in.

Plus, if i carry on the way i am going i may soon become the club mascot. Rubber Robonaught has even joked about making a little pet bed for me in one corner. Which does nothing to shrink my pride i will confess *grins*

There is a girl called Sienna who seems to be regulary in the rubber room. She initally approched me as she uses one of my Mistress' masks and had a question about them. But, since then we have become friends.

Even, if the 2nd time we met (today) i had no idea it was her for about 20mins. She had changed her look quite dramatically since the first meeting and although she spoke as if she knew me it took a while to work it out.

The rubber room was quite empty in the early afternoon and i kept her company for a while, nuzzling her boots and listening as she spoke. I even got the treat of being a bit of a footstool for her when she needed to take a seat. 

I don't believe my Mistress will be too upset by this i hope. I merely curled up on the floor infront of her seat as she sat. Like any good animal looking for company may. Occasionaly rubbing against her shoes. She realised quite quickly that i like having shoes rubbed against me and did tease me slighty as i lay there, but no boundries were crossed. This she made sure of. In fact she showed great integrity when speaking of not wanting to offend my Mistress, so i am happy to have met someone with standards. It can be hard to find such people sometimes.

I met many other people over the course of the day, many of whom i hate to say i have no idea who they are or what they are called. It is very tough being such an animal sometimes. No names and no public speaking means i do struggle occasionaly. Especially when the room gets busy and the chat is constant. It can be quite overwhelming. You end up just trying to listen out for important moments and when i hear my name i spring into action as it is like a beacon in the night. A moment when you have a full understanding of what is going on for once and what is required. These can be rare moments and as such they are often special. Even if they seem small and insignificant to the people around me, i am probably glowing or tingling merely from a brief second of contact as it is hard earned for me to get such attention sometimes.

Claudia should also get a mention today for being such a kind lady. A beautiful looking girl dressed as a rubber maid who really took a shine to me after i purred at her outfit. So much so, i spent a fair while just sitting next to her as she stroked or patted my head. I sincerely hope to see her again sometime. I am sure i have heard her name in the rubber room before.

My only worry is that i won't realise it is her next time i see her *wink*

Back in the collar

Yesterday was a great day. Back in SL, back in RLV and back in full pet mode, restricted just the way that Mistress Loola and I like it.
Having enjoyed my night of freedom and seeing old friends i was happy to have RLV working fully again and rediscovering my inner pet. The true me that makes everything tick. I spent the day exploring the rubber room and mgm playground and gaining the affections of anyone i came across along the way.
Making the most of my emotes and my body i loved communicating with people just the way i used to. No IM's, public chat, no names, teleports and more, mean that i am once again just an animal and devoid of human abilities. Who must wait for my Mistress and maintain the highest standards while she is away.

I pride myself on setting a high standard of servitude even when she is not around as i always hope that people will be impressed by me and therefore think highly of my Mistress. I am fully aware that despite the fact i don't see it, i am wearing a tag that says 'Loola's Pet' and as such i must always be on my best behaviour. I must be better than other pets as i only want to make my Mistress proud and it fills me with pride when strangers compliment me on my commitment and desire as i feel i am on the right path to making my Mistress happy.
On this day i met quite a few people and remembered how tricky it can be as an animal when several people are chatting around me at the same time. Not knowing what the humans call each other means that i struggle to keep up with the conversation sometimes and unless people make it clear through an action or direct comment i can get completely lost. In which case, i sit quietly and obediently until i am needed or mentioned and try to keep up with things as best as i can.
Among many others i met a lady whom, after about 30mins, i discovered was called Mistress Alia. Yes, it can take this long to find out something so trivial. We pets are not blessed with the information humans take for granted and who would think to walk up to a pet and just introduce themselves? That would be a silly notion *winks*
Mistress Alia had two lovely matching rubber subs with her who looked like twins and the Mistress herself looked quite stunning in a red rubber outfit. As i sat there admiring them all, the Mistress complimented me on being a good pet without any motivation. I can only guess that she may have found this blog in my profile and read of my commitment. Or maybe she can just spot natural talent *giggles*, either way the Mistress took a shine to me as she played with her toys and allowed me to sit at her feet and watch the fun as i nuzzled her boot and purred happily.
As the night went on it was comforting to be in the conversation as i met and played with new people. As i began to relax i curled up by Mistress Alia's feet and purred steadily as i rested to show my thanks for her attention over the evening. It is nice to be petted or stroked and even be noticed when you are just a simple being.
But, of course through everything i was constantly hoping my Mistress would arrive and that i would get to be with her for a bit. I know she is busy this week, so i will wait patiently and honourably, but my place is at her side.

Old Times

Tonight was a happy night. A happy night, in that i finally got to see my Mistress for the first time in months and to speak to her personally once more. I tried to explain my over long break and RL issues and as with all understanding and good people, she seemed happy just to know that i was ok and assures me that RL is greater than all and that as such she does not begrudge me anything.

I hope this will be the case as i long for things to go back to the way they were. It may some time i think. Mistress has some other new pets now it seems. I know she has not replaced me but i wonder on all that i missed and how things might be different if i had been here in the passing weeks. Hopefully it will all work out in the end. I have trust in Mistress Loola, so if she says it will be ok then i will believe in her words and give it my all. Mistress Loola actually only came online briefly just to find me when she noticed i was online, so this is a good sign i think that she still cares and was anxious to see what was happening. So i will use that thought to warm my heart as it made me feel wanted again.

Tonight i was having some problems with my RLV not working properly after doing some updates and after finally catching up with Mistress Loola before she had to vanish for the night, i was told i may take advantage of not having my normal IM restriction to contact old friends and speak to people about the fact i am back and to catch up with old friends. This was truly a treat and i am grateful to Mistress for being so understanding with everything that has gone on.
So, after bidding goodnight to my Mistress, i ventured out to the rubber room to see if there were any old faces around and to have some fun with my friends. I also sent some message to people who were offline to be caught later on. Erica my rubber sis was first on that list as we used to be very close and i hope she is ok. But, after finding a nice spot on the dance floor i spent a large chunk of the night dancing with my old friend Sanura. She was as upbeat as normal and i had a great time chatting and dancing the night away. Master Davis, one of the RR managers remembered me well and it was nice just to be back in that sort of environment again, surrounded by like minded people.

While i was there, the club had a contest for the best dolls in the house. So, as this was a unique night and i was in a fun mood i entered just because i could. Low and behold at the end of the event and the voting i had somehow come 2nd over all and was given some prize money and a voucher for a store too. You never know what's going to happen on a night out and i felt quite honoured that people still like the way i look. Plus, of course i have some incredible dance moves *wink*
It was so much fun to be back in this world and i can't wait to continue proving my worth to Mistress Loola. I am sure there will be some good times ahead.

Lonely Times

It has been so long since my last post and it is hard to know how to pick up where i left off exactly. RL has interfered in my dreams once more and kept me from my Mistress. In fact kept me from anything and everything that i hold dear. I will not be using this blog to explain my RL issues as this is not the place for that, but those that need to know, will know in time.

I can only hope that i will be able to carry on as before and make amends to everyone. But, especially of course, my dear Mistress.
I have been gone for so long from SL that i have no idea if she still thinks of me, or indeed even would want me to serve her as before. But, until i am able to track her down and find out for sure, the only thing i can do is to continue to serve her as i was and follow the last instructions i was given. Ensuring that i keep to my RLV restrictions and stay bound as she wished. I will continue to act the perfect pet until we meet again in order to prove my love and adoration. Because i know in my heart that i never lost these things and that i am always caring for her and carrying out her wishes even when she is not around. I hope to let my actions speak louder than any words. Which is fortunate since i am restricted to emotes anyway :)

On my last day with her, my My Mistress gave the chance to spread my legs for a bit as i had been trapped in the rubber room for several days. This of course, is because on top of my many other restrictions i am unable to teleport or interact with landmarks and so i must always wait where Mistress Loola left me. As a good pet should.
On this occasion Mistress left me on some island with lots of grass to wander on and some various buildings to investigate, in order for me to have some fun walking about and maybe meeting some people along the way.
On returning this day and having no where to go i spent the evening investigating the island and walking around it's many hills. Looking at the shops and buildings and also hoping slightly to meet anyone just for the chance to see another soul and show the world my devotion to my Mistress.

After finding that most of the island i am on seems to be empty tonight i came across a strange building with a few people inside. There 3 ladies there and they seemed to be building some sort of prison or jail.
I bounced up and wriggled in excitement happy for some company and after trying to answer there questions through my various nods and body responses they came to understand that i was waiting for my Mistress, but that i would be happy to sit with them. Just to be near some social interaction.
As i watched the unknown ladies speaking to each other (i can't see names either remember) i realised over time that two of the ladies were subs to the other more glamourous lady dressed in a long black gown.
I learned later in the the night that this Mistress' name was Carmen and that she appeared to be building this new prison to use with the subs and any other people who wish to come by. I watched with interest as she worked on various items. Installing leash holders in the cells and setting restrictions to the zone for rlv such as no im or tp. Although, i smirked slightly at this, thinking of all the subs who may find this harsh, when it is something that i have to deal with on a daily basis.
Mistress Carmen was kind enough to say that i may stay here or in her building next door while i wait for my Mistress and she complimented my behaviour, saying that i was a good pet for staying so restricted and hard working for my Mistress. I only hope that this will still be appreciated when i meet Mistress Loola once more. But, i of course thanked Carmen for her kind words in the only way i know how. By staying attentive and nuzzling her boot in friendship. I am just a simple pet after all. My obedience and care is my greatest gift.
I found myself looking to my friends list constantly over the course of the night though. Hoping vainly that maybe i had missed Mistress Loola appearing online, or maybe that if i stared at her name long enough on the list that she would magically appear. It is silly i know, but i just can't wait to be close to her again. To catch up with each other and beg for the chance to continue where i left off. For all i know she may have another pet by now, and i wouldn't blame her. It has been so long. But, all i can do is try to be the best pet in existence. I know i can do this and only hope it will be enough.