Where did the time go? How did this ever happen to me? I really have no idea. Well i do, but talking about such depressing and time consuming things is really not a good way for me to get started again.
Basically, i have missed EVERYTHING. I have missed being online, i have missed SL and most importantly i have missed Mistress Rubbergirl and everything she means to me.
I had a short absence once before, as you can see by looking at the dates of all my previous posts. From being a regular blogger, i have become nothing. A memory of things that once were, but have been lost to the sands of time.
Things move quickly in SL, this i know, and in the time i have been gone the people i knew could be married, dead, living in another version of reality, the possibilities are endless....
But, here i am. Having become as way laid by life as my original owner Mistress Loola. And how i understand the pain that can bring to the people you leave behind.
Mistress Rubbergirl has been nothing but kind to me and yet, after everything i leave her mystified and lost as to where i have been. Just as i felt a year or so ago. It's strange how things move in circles whether we want them to or not. It seems to happen all the time.
But oh i hope i can make amends.
Oh how i hope i can reagin my place and restore my reputation. Oh i hope i can win back my place in my Mistress' heart!
Having finally got myself completely locked into the control of Mistress Rubbergirl i have never been able to be stable in my home since, but it is not for anything other than rl and troubles along the way.
The person i most want to be with is here in sl, covered in rubber and decked in thigh high boots. She looks stunning every time i look up at her and the thought of being before her once more to rest my head in her lap as she sits in the rubber room, fills my heart with joy.
A joy which may be within reach, because as i log into sl for the first time in a long time, i look around the room in her home i last departed from and there in the corner, my bed still waits for me...
It's good to be home xxx
Saturday, 29 October 2011
Wednesday, 29 September 2010
Useless
Finally a post......It seems that the more i try to return & devote my time to where my heart belongs. Here in SL. The more i am torn away.
After the delights of a brief return in August, it became impossible to keep things up as i used to. My heart & soul lie in being the pet i have always been, and yet, the times when i used to spend many days & hours revelling in that role have long gone.
RL tears me away more & more, just as it did with my beloved Mistress Loola. Even though i know RL comes first & that i must do what i have to. It makes it no easier to take & miss my home here in SL.
The worst element of course, is knowing how much i let down those that need & care for me.
Mistress Rubbergirl has been magnificent over the whole course of this year, but every time i hope to impress her & settle by her side, the dreams are scuppered and as such i let her down again.
Apologies Mistress for being such an absent pet, and apologies to anyone who wanders where i am, or what i am up to.
I still think on you all & hope to see you again, but, maybe my times are changing? Maybe, i will have to alter my expectations or commitments in someway, so as not to disappoint myself & or my Mistress, by pledging more than i can deliver in this difficult time of transition.
Who knows? Not i right now, that's for sure.
Thinking of you all xx
After the delights of a brief return in August, it became impossible to keep things up as i used to. My heart & soul lie in being the pet i have always been, and yet, the times when i used to spend many days & hours revelling in that role have long gone.
RL tears me away more & more, just as it did with my beloved Mistress Loola. Even though i know RL comes first & that i must do what i have to. It makes it no easier to take & miss my home here in SL.
The worst element of course, is knowing how much i let down those that need & care for me.
Mistress Rubbergirl has been magnificent over the whole course of this year, but every time i hope to impress her & settle by her side, the dreams are scuppered and as such i let her down again.
Apologies Mistress for being such an absent pet, and apologies to anyone who wanders where i am, or what i am up to.
I still think on you all & hope to see you again, but, maybe my times are changing? Maybe, i will have to alter my expectations or commitments in someway, so as not to disappoint myself & or my Mistress, by pledging more than i can deliver in this difficult time of transition.
Who knows? Not i right now, that's for sure.
Thinking of you all xx
Wednesday, 1 September 2010
Control & Ownership
Such a good day was had on Monday. I got to spend a long time in the company of my Mistress and how she has been to me.
Mistress Rubbergirl has been kind enough to take the time with me to sort out my cuffs, collar, locks, mask etc. as they were all still locked by Mistress Loola. This was because it was always intended after Mistress Loola's departure that she would hop online at some point to pass any keys over etc over to Mistress Rubbergirl and grant her full control over me.
Unfortunately, Mistress Loola has been laden more heavily with RL than hoped and as such, this never happened. It was not enough to stop my loyalty and servitude to Mistress Rubbergirl however as even locked securely away inside my suit i was still able to grant her my affection and love and i was always happy with the rewards i was given.
Over the course of time though this has obviously been something of a niggling issue and in order to be able to truly feel secure in my place and to prove my loyalty and devotion to Mistress Rubbergirl, it is only right to get my locks and ownership in order. For her happiness and for mine too.
So...it took a while, but, after much fiddling and relogging, i am now happily under the lock and key of Mistress Rubbergirl and it is a wonderful feeling.
To know that i have such a good owner and to realise how lucky i am to be under her watchful eye. Mistress Rubbergirl has always been there for me, at every turn and i will do my utmost to please her. She is now the centre of everything and i am always happy to be by her side. It is good to know where i belong and what is expected of me and so my devotion to my Mistress will no no bounds as i aim to do my best by her.
Here is to the coming weeks and the fun that hopefully lies ahead. xx
Mistress Rubbergirl has been kind enough to take the time with me to sort out my cuffs, collar, locks, mask etc. as they were all still locked by Mistress Loola. This was because it was always intended after Mistress Loola's departure that she would hop online at some point to pass any keys over etc over to Mistress Rubbergirl and grant her full control over me.
Unfortunately, Mistress Loola has been laden more heavily with RL than hoped and as such, this never happened. It was not enough to stop my loyalty and servitude to Mistress Rubbergirl however as even locked securely away inside my suit i was still able to grant her my affection and love and i was always happy with the rewards i was given.
Over the course of time though this has obviously been something of a niggling issue and in order to be able to truly feel secure in my place and to prove my loyalty and devotion to Mistress Rubbergirl, it is only right to get my locks and ownership in order. For her happiness and for mine too.
So...it took a while, but, after much fiddling and relogging, i am now happily under the lock and key of Mistress Rubbergirl and it is a wonderful feeling.
To know that i have such a good owner and to realise how lucky i am to be under her watchful eye. Mistress Rubbergirl has always been there for me, at every turn and i will do my utmost to please her. She is now the centre of everything and i am always happy to be by her side. It is good to know where i belong and what is expected of me and so my devotion to my Mistress will no no bounds as i aim to do my best by her.
Here is to the coming weeks and the fun that hopefully lies ahead. xx
Sunday, 29 August 2010
Coming Home
Hey everyone!
It has been so long since my last post. I know, i am sorry. It has been a pretty busy and torrid time for me this summer and my SL has been put on hold whilst my RL took priority for a while.
But, as all good natured people will tell you, RL comes first. So, when needs must, we do what we must to get by,
It has not been easy to be away from all my friends and of course, most importantly, my dear Mistress Rubbergirl. Just as we were beginning to form our new relationship, with her as my new owner, we have been parted in the most cruel way.
However, the kindness and understanding that Mistress Rubbergirl has for me knows no bounds. She has always been supportive of my needs and the time i need to keep things in order.
My role as a pet though and the need to please and be close to my owner always makes it so hard to be away for any length of time. So i was elated to finally be able to see her again. The pic below, being a fine example of our joyful reunion...
I cannot wait to make up once more for the time i have lost. I know that i have a lot to do to get myself up to speed. Time moves so quickly in SL, with relationships, friends, roles and places, changing and evolving so fast.
It will be interesting to see all the things i have missed over time.
I look forward to catching up with all my friends again and i hope you will all bear with me as i do my best to continue with my blog as normal.
Hopefully, some people out there will still be interested in what i have to say. xx
It has been so long since my last post. I know, i am sorry. It has been a pretty busy and torrid time for me this summer and my SL has been put on hold whilst my RL took priority for a while.
But, as all good natured people will tell you, RL comes first. So, when needs must, we do what we must to get by,
It has not been easy to be away from all my friends and of course, most importantly, my dear Mistress Rubbergirl. Just as we were beginning to form our new relationship, with her as my new owner, we have been parted in the most cruel way.
However, the kindness and understanding that Mistress Rubbergirl has for me knows no bounds. She has always been supportive of my needs and the time i need to keep things in order.
My role as a pet though and the need to please and be close to my owner always makes it so hard to be away for any length of time. So i was elated to finally be able to see her again. The pic below, being a fine example of our joyful reunion...
I cannot wait to make up once more for the time i have lost. I know that i have a lot to do to get myself up to speed. Time moves so quickly in SL, with relationships, friends, roles and places, changing and evolving so fast.
It will be interesting to see all the things i have missed over time.
I look forward to catching up with all my friends again and i hope you will all bear with me as i do my best to continue with my blog as normal.
Hopefully, some people out there will still be interested in what i have to say. xx
Tuesday, 22 June 2010
Changes
Such a big couple of weeks in terms of changes and relationships. I have struggled to blog the last few days even when i have been able to be online, as i have found myself struggling to work out exactly where my role lies recently and what the future holds for me. Being able to be clear and honest about things in my blog is very important to me, so being unsure how to explain things to the world when i wasn't even sure myself has been very tricky to deal with.
My beloved Mistress Loola sent me a mail a while ago expressing her love for me but, also the unfortunate news that she will be away for sometime still with RL. I will not go to specifically into the exact details of it all. But, needless to say i was quite devastated to hear such bad news from my point of view.
But, as Mistress Loola always says, RL comes first and i am proud of her for taking the time to do what is needed for herself. Despite my sadness.
Even in her parting though, she still cares enough to plan for my care while she is away for an indefinite period. She found the time one evening, to chat with Mistress Rubbergirl, who has been so kind to me over the passing weeks, and, to put it simply, she has asked her to care for me as if i was her own pet for how ever long it may be until she returns.
Needless to say, that both myself and Mistress Rubbergirl were left flabbergasted, even if it is from very different points of view...
Mistress Loola is still intending to pop online very briefly at some point to express her wishes to me more personally and more clearly. As well as, presumably, giving Mistress Rubbergirl better access to me, by altering some of my permissions maybe.
I was at a loss for a while, wondering how to cope. Where to start? How to deal with everything and come to terms with what is going on.
Mistress Rubbergirl is fabulous and as Mistress Loola suggests, i can think of no one better to look after me. But, that made it no less shocking. Mistress Loola has moulded me into the well rounded pet i am today and to know i will not see her for such lengths that she needs to entrust my care to someone left me down for some days.
This is why my blog has faltered so much recently, as i am sure you can understand. I simply didn't know where to start as i waited for answers or tried to resolve my own feelings.
After much soul searching though, i came to realise that the only thing that truly matters to me is my Mistress and doing my best to please her and keep her happy. If she feels Mistress Rubbergirl is able to look after me, whilst she herself is unable to, then i will follow her decision. Who am i to doubt her?
I am and will always be, Mistress Loola's pet, and as soon as she does return to SL i will be back at her side quicker than you can blink. *grins*
Until then though, i am proud and honoured to have Mistress Rubbergirl as a Mistress. She is a fabulous friend, woman, Mistress and more. To be in her presence is always an honour and i am honoured that she has agreed to take care of me.
So....my days will be a little different now. The rubber room is still of course, one of my main hang outs and i still have a bed there. For which i am ever grateful! But, on top of this i now have the constant care and protection of Mistress Rubbergirl as she welcomes me into her family.
So much so, she has even been kind enough to put a bed for me in her playroom so that i also have a place to rest when i am at her abode. Below is a peek of it for your pleasure and as the days go on i hope to have more news on all the changes and more as things develop. Hopefully, things will work out nicely and as always i must thank most of all my beloved, Mistress Loola xx
My beloved Mistress Loola sent me a mail a while ago expressing her love for me but, also the unfortunate news that she will be away for sometime still with RL. I will not go to specifically into the exact details of it all. But, needless to say i was quite devastated to hear such bad news from my point of view.
But, as Mistress Loola always says, RL comes first and i am proud of her for taking the time to do what is needed for herself. Despite my sadness.
Even in her parting though, she still cares enough to plan for my care while she is away for an indefinite period. She found the time one evening, to chat with Mistress Rubbergirl, who has been so kind to me over the passing weeks, and, to put it simply, she has asked her to care for me as if i was her own pet for how ever long it may be until she returns.
Needless to say, that both myself and Mistress Rubbergirl were left flabbergasted, even if it is from very different points of view...
Mistress Loola is still intending to pop online very briefly at some point to express her wishes to me more personally and more clearly. As well as, presumably, giving Mistress Rubbergirl better access to me, by altering some of my permissions maybe.
I was at a loss for a while, wondering how to cope. Where to start? How to deal with everything and come to terms with what is going on.
Mistress Rubbergirl is fabulous and as Mistress Loola suggests, i can think of no one better to look after me. But, that made it no less shocking. Mistress Loola has moulded me into the well rounded pet i am today and to know i will not see her for such lengths that she needs to entrust my care to someone left me down for some days.
This is why my blog has faltered so much recently, as i am sure you can understand. I simply didn't know where to start as i waited for answers or tried to resolve my own feelings.
After much soul searching though, i came to realise that the only thing that truly matters to me is my Mistress and doing my best to please her and keep her happy. If she feels Mistress Rubbergirl is able to look after me, whilst she herself is unable to, then i will follow her decision. Who am i to doubt her?
I am and will always be, Mistress Loola's pet, and as soon as she does return to SL i will be back at her side quicker than you can blink. *grins*
Until then though, i am proud and honoured to have Mistress Rubbergirl as a Mistress. She is a fabulous friend, woman, Mistress and more. To be in her presence is always an honour and i am honoured that she has agreed to take care of me.
So....my days will be a little different now. The rubber room is still of course, one of my main hang outs and i still have a bed there. For which i am ever grateful! But, on top of this i now have the constant care and protection of Mistress Rubbergirl as she welcomes me into her family.
So much so, she has even been kind enough to put a bed for me in her playroom so that i also have a place to rest when i am at her abode. Below is a peek of it for your pleasure and as the days go on i hope to have more news on all the changes and more as things develop. Hopefully, things will work out nicely and as always i must thank most of all my beloved, Mistress Loola xx
Sunday, 13 June 2010
The Future
It's been an interesting couple of days for me. There is a lot happening but, not all of i feel able to speak of right now. I had contact from my Mistress this week, but i am waiting to see her face to face to fully appreciate and understand the extent of everything.
I know that she cares for me no end, but that as with everyone sometimes, she has things going on far bigger than anything waiting for her in SL right now and i fully respect that.
What i do know for sure is that Mistress Loola will be away a while longer yet and the future may be a little different for me. How exactly, time will tell and i will tell you more as i can. My mind has been racing the last couple of days and it is a hard time to be a pet. The person i need most and that my whole world is centred around, is out of my reach and there is nothing i can do about it.
The saving grace as always is having people who care for me to make sure i am getting by ok. I saw Alistair last night, for the first time in a while. Although only briefly it made me feel comforted to know he is still around and asking after me.
On top of that, i spent a little time with Jessie, Miss Thina's kitten, as i have previously called her in this blog. Although things with have altered it seems into a more mutual, loving partnership. A little surprising to come back to after only about a week away, but as long as they are happy, that's the main thing.
I hope to see more of them again soon as it is always fun to bump into them in the rubber room. As it is with many of the regulars who know me there.
Mistress Rubbergirl has been taking care of me of course as well. She was looking stunning last night in a clear latex outfit which definitely caught my eye. *winks* But, i was surprised to return the other day to discover Mistress Rubbergirl has a new pet, Carly, whom, more surprisingly, has many similarities to myself. Apparently Mistress Rubbergirl made her new pet read my blog to help see if the pet's life was for her and to understand what it is all about. I blushed greatly at this it is a lovely compliment to me. I hope Carly enjoyed my words in some way and i hope she is able to find herself happiness within her new role, and be able to commit to it long term. I am sure she will try to do Mistress Rubbergirl proud.
I have noticed an increase in pets recently over the past few months. It may be just coincidence, although i could be bigheaded and claim some credit for it *flex*. I would never be so arrogant though hehe.
Anyway, i will vanish for now and give more info on my situation as soon as i can. I need to resolve it all as quickly as you may want to know *smiles*
I know that she cares for me no end, but that as with everyone sometimes, she has things going on far bigger than anything waiting for her in SL right now and i fully respect that.
What i do know for sure is that Mistress Loola will be away a while longer yet and the future may be a little different for me. How exactly, time will tell and i will tell you more as i can. My mind has been racing the last couple of days and it is a hard time to be a pet. The person i need most and that my whole world is centred around, is out of my reach and there is nothing i can do about it.
The saving grace as always is having people who care for me to make sure i am getting by ok. I saw Alistair last night, for the first time in a while. Although only briefly it made me feel comforted to know he is still around and asking after me.
On top of that, i spent a little time with Jessie, Miss Thina's kitten, as i have previously called her in this blog. Although things with have altered it seems into a more mutual, loving partnership. A little surprising to come back to after only about a week away, but as long as they are happy, that's the main thing.
I hope to see more of them again soon as it is always fun to bump into them in the rubber room. As it is with many of the regulars who know me there.
Mistress Rubbergirl has been taking care of me of course as well. She was looking stunning last night in a clear latex outfit which definitely caught my eye. *winks* But, i was surprised to return the other day to discover Mistress Rubbergirl has a new pet, Carly, whom, more surprisingly, has many similarities to myself. Apparently Mistress Rubbergirl made her new pet read my blog to help see if the pet's life was for her and to understand what it is all about. I blushed greatly at this it is a lovely compliment to me. I hope Carly enjoyed my words in some way and i hope she is able to find herself happiness within her new role, and be able to commit to it long term. I am sure she will try to do Mistress Rubbergirl proud.
I have noticed an increase in pets recently over the past few months. It may be just coincidence, although i could be bigheaded and claim some credit for it *flex*. I would never be so arrogant though hehe.
Anyway, i will vanish for now and give more info on my situation as soon as i can. I need to resolve it all as quickly as you may want to know *smiles*
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