Useless

Finally a post......It seems that the more i try to return & devote my time to where my heart belongs. Here in SL. The more i am torn away.
After the delights of a brief return in August, it became impossible to keep things up as i used to. My heart & soul lie in being the pet i have always been, and yet, the times when i used to spend many days & hours revelling in that role have long gone.
RL tears me away more & more, just as it did with my beloved Mistress Loola. Even though i know RL comes first & that i must do what i have to. It makes it no easier to take & miss my home here in SL.

The worst element of course, is knowing how much i let down those that need & care for me.

Mistress Rubbergirl has been magnificent over the whole course of this year, but every time i hope to impress her & settle by her side, the dreams are scuppered and as such i let her down again.

Apologies Mistress for being such an absent pet, and apologies to anyone who wanders where i am, or what i am up to.

I still think on you all & hope to see you again, but, maybe my times are changing? Maybe, i will have to alter my expectations or commitments in someway, so as not to disappoint myself & or my Mistress, by pledging more than i can deliver in this difficult time of transition.
Who knows? Not i right now, that's for sure.

Thinking of you all xx

Control & Ownership

Such a good day was had on Monday. I got to spend a long time in the company of my Mistress and how she has been to me.

Mistress Rubbergirl has been kind enough to take the time with me to sort out my cuffs, collar, locks, mask etc. as they were all still locked by Mistress Loola. This was because it was always intended after Mistress Loola's departure that she would hop online at some point to pass any keys over etc over to Mistress Rubbergirl and grant her full control over me.
Unfortunately, Mistress Loola has been laden more heavily with RL than hoped and as such, this never happened. It was not enough to stop my loyalty and servitude to Mistress Rubbergirl however as even locked securely away inside my suit i was still able to grant her my affection and love and i was always happy with the rewards i was given.

Over the course of time though this has obviously been something of a niggling issue and in order to be able to truly feel secure in my place and to prove my loyalty and devotion to Mistress Rubbergirl, it is only right to get my locks and ownership in order. For her happiness and for mine too.

So...it took a while, but, after much fiddling and relogging, i am now happily under the lock and key of Mistress Rubbergirl and it is a wonderful feeling.
To know that i have such a good owner and to realise how lucky i am to be under her watchful eye. Mistress Rubbergirl has always been there for me, at every turn and i will do my utmost to please her. She is now the centre of everything and i am always happy to be by her side. It is good to know where i belong and what is expected of me and so my devotion to my Mistress will no no bounds as i aim to do my best by her.

Here is to the coming weeks and the fun that hopefully lies ahead. xx